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No good, very bad day.
I know others have it much worse than me, and if you're having a bad day or a down in the dumps day, this might be a good post to skip.
I love my job. Most days. The last few weeks, not so much. Our office is "governed" by a much larger office a few hours away. Their office has 15+ employess. We have 2. They have 3 of my counterparts plus a full-time event planner/assistant. We have me and my director, and no event planner or assistant. 8 out of 10 times, this doesn't matter. But, I'm currently doing major recruitment for volunteers plus trying to plan a breakfast to raise money for our salaries and everything else our office needs (we're a not-for-profit and our old director took that to mean we should LOSE money by the thousands last year). While I enjoy parts of my job, having to plan a major portion of our breakfast and recruit over 150 volunteers isn't easy and I don't get paid nearly enough to do it. I'm tired and just worn out. My boss is very nice, but he's not in the middle of grant writing so the only thing he's doing is breakfast and I know he has time to help me but he hasn't. I've told him I'm stressed, but he doesn't say anything.
I was talking to S earlier on gChat and just started crying telling him how stressed out I am. I really want to rip my hair out and just lay in bed and not come to work. (all of which is the opposite of what I should do).
On top of work, S is deployed (hence gChat) and I'm off my anxiety meds. I weaned off, not cold turkey-ed them, and I was doing great for weeks now, but now I don't know if I'm anxious and stressed due to work or if it has anything to do with my lack of meds. They were so low dose that I know it wouldn't kill me to go back on them, but I don't want to without knowing where the anxiety is coming from.
There was no real point to this post other than to get it off my chest. And speaking of my chest, a strap on my dress came off earlier and I'm now very much showing off more than I'd like, so my open faced sweater over my dress is now wrapped around and closed with an earring. *sigh*
Also: I miss you girls.
Re: No good, very bad day.
Bummer day, dude. I'm sorry. However, I say, if you are comfortable going back on the low dose anxiety meds and it will help through this time, go for it. It sounds like the source of the stress could be deployment/work situation. What other things are you thinking it could be?
I hope tomorrow is much better!
Dang. Even with anxiety medication, I would be a basket case.
I hope that things ease up soon.
((Hugs!!!))
And we miss you too.
HUGS.
I'm sorry you're having a shiitty few weeks. I miss you too.
It sucks to have a crappy day at work and to not have an H to go home to afterwards. I genuinely think that's been the hardest thing for me about this whole deployment.
I'm sorry S!