Guess I'm the downer of the bunch.

xDanniellex · March 2012

I put off saying anything.

First, shortly after Kare found out I also found out I was pregnant. I wanted her to have her moment, especially since I had already had my moment with K and she was having some spotting issues.

Second, just over a week after I found out I started spotting (last Wednesday). I had blood drawn on Thursday and Saturday. Finally got a call late this afternoon from my doctor's office. My blood work on Thursday confirmed the pregnancy, and Saturday's draw was down to 6. But the blood was just a formality since I had a lot more than just spotting all weekend.

I'm sorry if I'm not positive towards Kare and Shmoozer. I don't begrudge you your pregnancies and certainly want you to have healthy babies. It is just really hard when you are both due around the same time I should have been. So, instead of being negative I may just not post often which I hope is understandable.

Just wanted to share since I know other ladies have had their own m/c and this is not an easy time. I thought it was bad enough to be in the group of women that don't conceive easily, but now that I'm in the group that have lost a baby too it shows how truly unfair life is.

shmoozer · March 2012

Oh, D, I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending you hugs. I can't imagine how you're feeling, but I totally get it. You know we're all hear to "listen" when you're ready. HUGS.

BMWwife · March 2012

(((HUGS))) I'm so sorry for you lost. We are all here for you. I'[m sure this is a difficult and sensitive time, but please don't shy away from the board b/c of all of the new pregnancies. Us non-pregnant people need things to read too.

buckeyethor · March 2012

I am so sorry! I cannot imagine your pain.

KlassyWithaK · March 2012

So sorry to hear that D. Please stick around and talk to us non-pregnant people.

MarylandWed · March 2012

my thoughts are with you!!! man it's not fair how life is with this baby making thing! i hope you have a lot of support around you and i hope your h is okay too. i will be thinking about you.

Jessica&Brett · March 2012

Oh no, so sorry to hear this Dannielle

I hope you'll end up sticking around, and that you get another BFP really soon! Does your doctor want you to wait before starting to try again?

TheFutureMrs08 · March 2012

Oh I'm so sorry sweetie! I'll be sending lots of my thoughts and prayers your way during this difficult time. We're here for you when your ready! (((HUGS)))

punkinspie · March 2012

I'm sorry Danielle I can sympathize with how you're feeling. I get a twinge of pain when I think about the happy pregnant women around me.. Sometimes all I can think of is how I'd be due in September.

If you need an ear, feel free to reach out to me. I'm always around.

karebear304 · March 2012

Please, please don't feel like you can't post because of me. My miscarriage was one of the hardest things I've ever been through and posting here really helped me to get through it. I absolutely understand what you mean about being happy for others, but being sad for yourself. Believe me, I understand that more than I'd like to.

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

xDanniellex · March 2012

Thanks ladies. I knew you'd be supportive.

I didn't mean that I'd avoid the board. Heck I check the darn thing numerous times a day. I'm not going anywhere. More that I wouldn't be replying in any baby posts, Shmoozer's below. I've updated the Mom's Bio so I won't be neglecting that.

I have to have another blood draw next Monday to make sure that my level is below 5. The doctor wants me to wait until after I get a real period to start TTC again. Let's just hope that my cycle gets back to normal and I only have to wait about 4 weeks for AF to show up. I plan to go back to the plan to go on Clomid once I do the infertility blood work.

LSUmommy4 · March 2012

Again so sorry for your loss hun. I can't imagine how sad that is, but we are here for you. I think everyone understands if you aren't into posting on the baby related posts for awhile...I'm sure I would feel the same way...be very happy for the girls but sad at the same time. I'm crossing my fingers that you get AF in 4 weeks and can get the ball rolling on the clomid! Hugs