Since the MC in February, I've been aloof. I've been miserable, depressed, and all round sick. I haven't looked for jobs, I haven't gone out, and I've only socialized once.
Today, while doing the dishes, something suddenly came over me. I started crying, for seemingly no reason. I wasn't crying because I was angry, or hostile (my initial feelings after the loss) I wasn't even sad. It was like all of a sudden, I realized that everything was OK. After everything I went through, I was alright. I felt unburdened for the first time since last year when the MS diagnosis hit me like a brick.
I'm actually going to be alright. It's such a weird realization to have hit out of nowhere. I'm actually smiling. It's been so long, it actually hurts.
I think I may actually be able to move on finally. I didn't even realize that I was stuck. Thank you for all your love and support with everything.
Re: I broke down today
Couldn't say it better myself. Ditto this!
Happy for you!!
don't!