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I'm sorry...
...that I can't share anything good today. I haven't been around because I had a bad weekend. Friday morning, I had some spotting and called the doctor and she told me to come right in. I had an ultrasound and only saw the gestational sac. At 5w5d, it bothered me but was too early to know either way. She told me I may have more bleeding Friday to Saturday morning since my cervix was irritated. I was praying that was the reason for the spotting.
Well, I did bleed. But it continued and got bright red and heavy by Saturday night. Sunday, it started slowing down and turned brown, but at this point I just knew. I talked to my doctor Monday and she scheduled an ultrasound for this morning.
The sac was empty. At 6w3d, there should have been something. I was charting/opk so I know my days are right. She wants to be 100% so I have a ultrasound scheduled in a week. A D&C is scheduled for next Thursday so it is in the books. We will decide what route we want to go on Wednesday and cancel it if need be.
Since she is pretty sure I had an unconfirmed chemical pregnancy in September, this makes 3 losses. We are going to start testing and see what's going on. The 2 major things she said it could possibly be is a clotting disorder or something with Floyd or my chromosomes. Even if I have a perfect child, both can still fit. She said with our chromosomes, it is the luck of the draw and well Weston must have been lucky. With the clotting disorder, I have a history in my family...my dad had a clot in his leg, my uncle in his heart and my aunt just found out she has Factor VIII (a clotting disorder). Also, a symptom of a clotting disorder can be pre-E in a successful pregnancy, which I had. If all comes back normal, she is still going to take precautions in future pregnancy to cover our bases.
So, once again, it's over. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare that I can't wake up from. I am devastated and am heartbroken. I am going to try to stick around as much as possible but it may be too hard. It just happens that all the recent pregnancies are in the same months of my last 2 losses. Don't get me wrong, I wish the best for all the pregnant niners and it isn't anything personal against you guys, it just is very hard to see happiness when I am just so sad...
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Oh Kelly...
I don't even know what to say. I am so, so, so sorry.
If there is anything I can do for you, please don't hesitate to ask.
*hugs*
So sorry Kelly.
I have Factor V, if you have any questions, I can try to answer them.
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Aw Kelly I'm so sorry. You and Floyd are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Kelly, I am so sorry, although I know that sentiment doesn't always convey what I wish it did. Sounds like you have a good team and a good testing plan in place. I'll be praying that you guys get some answers so you can keep moving forward. You are a really strong person, don't doubt yourself now. Take care of you as much as you can, whatever that involves.
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LO#2 aka 'Miracle Baby' Orig. EDD= 9/28 EDD moved to 10/3/13
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Our baby boy,Logan, was born still at 19w3d on 7/1/2011
Our 2nd baby boy, Mason, was born still at 20w3d on 1/31/2012
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I'm sorry, Kelly.
And don't apologize. We understand and are here if you need us. {{hugs}}