So today I went through to organize/sort all of my computer docs and pics in preparation for end of school year file transfers/backups (giving the laptop back to the school).
Anyway, I was organizing a picture and came across some old 2009 pics. I honestly have zero feeling when I see pics of the ex. I think I've just shut down to him with any emotion... happy, sad, bitter... nothing. He is off the radar map... but what did strike a cord is when I came across the picture of him dancing with the woman he divorced me for... who was at my wedding with her husband. Made me realize how time changed and I felt the little bit of anger/bitterness creep up. I immediately went into prayer and closed it. He and I got married with his friend (the girl) and her husband in attendance. I'm pretty sure (though not so much anymore) that nothing had happened between them until the weekend or two after we separated but honestly not even sure. Anyway, I take a lot of the responsibility for our separation and problems but the fact is he divorced me for a married woman and the picture of them dancing at my wedding... just creepy. I deleted it and another pic of her at my wedding as well as all of the docs/letters I had written to him.
The fact that I could delete those really showed me how much I've moved on. I had him on a pedastal for so long... what an idiot I was lol. I kept the honeymoon pics I have of us in an archived folder but eh... I'm in love with a man who knows how to love me and how to show it... who knows how to make me feel like the most amazing woman in the world and who feels like he's the luckiest guy in the world to be with me. I've never known that feeling and wow... it's amazing.
Anyway... just thought Id share that...
Re: Creepy Pic
That must be so tough to unexpectedly stumble across things like that. I agree that you are so incredibly strong and I admire you for holding out for a man that treats you good and makes you happy and has all the qualities you want/need.
I'm glad you feel you were able to move on. Deleting those things in itself takes a strong person. Good for you!
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