I am still so upset over the loss of my cat. I can't seem to stop crying. When I do stop, I start back up again within 5 minutes. I had to take a Advil PM to sleep last night. When I woke up this morning I didn't want to get out of bed because I am so used to him waking me up and running down the stairs with me, following me into the kitchen so I could feed him. It was terrible without him there with me as I did my morning routine.
I have so much pain. I keep thinking, "why did he have to die?" and "why is God causing me all this pain?"
I know he was just a cat, but to me he was so much more. We had a special bond because it was just him and I for so long. When I was dealing with my depression he was always by my side. When I was single he slept with me every night. He would greet me at the door when I would come home and I would talk to him and it seemed as if he knew what I was saying. DH just started liking him. He began making up songs. When he would sit and stare at the window DH would sing, "How much is that Bailee in the window" Bailee would look at DH and meow.
This townhouse is just so quiet now. I would give anything to be able to hear him running around or having him on my lap now as I type this. I know that it is just going to take time to feel normal again but right now it feels like this pain will never go away.
I have to work today at 1 and I don't want to go. My eyes are puffy and all I want to do is get back in bed and sleep the day away. Too bad I can't call out.
Re: Can't stop crying
Losing a pet is never easy, I remember how hard it was when our old dog died. You have to know that he is in a better place and you'll meet again one day at the rainbow bridge. Just like everyone else, you need to grieve. some days will be hard and other days will be okay.
It helped my mom to pack up RB's things once she passed, that way there weren't constant reminders of her all over the house. We had her cremated and kept her favorite bone on top on her box... we still have it 10 years later. We also still have her box of stuff in storage. Its in a storage bin and even after all this time when you open it, it still smells like her.
I know it is soon but have you thought about getting another cat? Not to replaced Bailee but to help fill the void? I know that when my mom got a new puppy it helped her because instead of focusing on her loss, she was focusing on raising a puppy.
These feelings will get better Tara. *hugs*
I would love to get another cat in a month or so but DH is allegric and really doesn't want to deal with another cat. I've been asking him to consider it. I'm going to look into cat breeds that are better for people with allergies. Bailee had very soft angora hair that shed all the time.
Married the love of my life on 1-21-12. Our princess arrived on 5-28-13.
I can understand where your DH is coming from, I am very allergic to cats and was miserable when my DH had his. My doctor finally put her foot down and said the cat had to go.
Is your DH open to any other animal types?
Thank you Jen!
Married the love of my life on 1-21-12. Our princess arrived on 5-28-13.