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Live from the 3rd floor of Pennsy
So I'm alive and mentally hanging in there to the best I can although my hospital stay is pretty much at the point has now become a indeterminate amount of time. I think it was the whole time, but they were avoiding telling me that. Day 1, I was told 2 days, possibly 1... Day 2 I was told a week. Now I'm on Day 3 and a doctor mentioned 4 weeks today. I'm really glad to be thinking about Kernal today so I can get out of the mental gutter that I've been in. You all know I was very worried about my care leading up to this from the MFM practice, so I can't help but wonder if there was earlier intervention, if I would be in this situation today. Now, I just have to move on and deal with the hand I'm dealt I guess, as hard as it is. I'm just a control freak (obvi) so the lack of information drives me insane. I make sure I have a very serious conversation with a doctor once a day about my concerns, my anxiety levels, and how they need to be up front with me so I can prepare. But all I keep getting is "we just don't know".
So they do very little to monitor me which is the tough part (mentally) cause I'm just sitting here. I know I need to be thankful that nothing is happening, but it's tough. I get vitals 3x per day. I still have an IV line in my arm, but they haven't run anything since day 1. Babies only get NST's once a day for 20 mins. It's a difficult process because they are small and moving around like mad, but the nurses have been kind and helping me get through the 20 mins as easy as possible. If they don't get a read on Baby A & B at the SAME time for a straight 20 mins, it could go on for hours which is why the first day sucked royally... they were on 24 hr monitoring and I had someone touching me every 5 mins for 24 hrs since the babies would move off the monitors. Plus I had the steroids and mag... now it's nothing. I'm just here to chill, it's kinda crazy. NO cervical checks whatsoever because they don't want to mess with anything down there. From what I understand, they may do a cervical check after the weekend or early next week to get a read on if anything progressed. Really, the MFM though it was .5-1cm, so I really don't know what it is and they don't want to check. I have no other signs of preterm labor, no contractions, babies are great... so it's tough to just hunker down knowing that I could be dilated like this until 38w. Obviously, I DOUBT that will happen, but realistically I could be like this through my entire pregnancy.
So I'm basically living here now, with very little observation and that's my problem. I feel like I could be at home on strict bed rest and much more comfortable. My Mom offered to come move in for a while if I went home so that I'd have 24 hr care which is completely awesome since Mr. Jewels has to work 12-14 hr shifts. I keep explaining that to the docs, that if something were to happen I'm 10 mins away and my Mom could get me here. I guess at this point I'm just so early that they'd prefer to get me further along so that should something progress quickly, I'm here. So I have to accept that, but I'm super uncomfortable (the bed BLOWS). Oh, and I'm in a double room! My roommate while very sweet, has an entourage that was here past visiting hours last night, blasts music, and also thinks this is a hotel. It is PURE entertainment though, so it's actually kind of a blessing because it's taking my mind off the crappy situation. I've complained, Mr. Jewels has complained, my sister has complained... just because the situation is kind of ridiculous. Someone this morning came from guest services came to apologize but said they were full and it kinda just pissed me off more because she was kind of an a-hole. I did hear from my nurse though a few hrs ago that 2 people were released, so I am getting moved at some point today. I do have a pretty view of Center City though!
Mr. Jewels asked about taking me out in a wheelchair and they are going to allow that and also asked about bringing the dog to see me and the nurses thought we could arrange that outside. The hardest part is missing my Fiona and knowing she's a mess at home.
I LOVEEEEEEE the nurses here, I cannot say enough great things about the staff. For all of you who recommended, Pennsy - this is totally why. They rock. Food is sub-par, but I keep trying to order the whole menu and they are pretty good about it, so I usually can find something to eat :-) Plus, I'm on no diet restrictions so I can get outside food too.
Mr. Jewels has been off W/T/F and goes back to work S/S/M so my parents are coming to chill with me tomorrow and I have a few friends planning to come Sunday. I'm also now in real clothes and have all my product and it's like a Sephora up in my room so I feel much better. I keep sending DH home with ridiculous lists. And I'm watching My So Called Life from beginning to end... and it's kind of amazing. Oh and I'm still working!!! Work is actually a good distraction.
I cannot thank you all enough for listening, sending good thoughts, prayers, and good vibes my way. I know quite a few of you have been through this, early births, traumatic births, sick babies, and have had it SOOOOOO much worse. So I am trying to stay positive and not negative nelly considering it's JUST bed rest. Yes, it's not ideal and I'm mentally drained, but these babies are on the inside after all. After all we've been through to get these babes, we need them to come home healthy and they will... and I have to remind myself that the road ahead of us could be much more difficult.
DH and I are chatting names now to take our minds off things... guess we should get around to that 
I love you guys! Thank you for all of the messages and support!
Re: Live from the 3rd floor of Pennsy
I love this update (other than the whole fact that it has to happen). You sound like you are in good spirits. Live blogging from Pennsy for a few weeks- you may even get some advertisers and start to make money over there. D
You are a freaking rock star. I cannot tell you how much I admire your grace, humor and strength during all of this. Your babies have a kick asss mama. I hope they let you go home soon and that these stubborn kiddos keep cooking. Lots of love and
DD: 6-24-11
EDD: 9-20-14
You are awesome.
Can you have visitors? I bet lots of people would love to come and keep you company!
Dude, you crazy peeps are making me cry! @#$#$%^ pregnancy hormones!!
Super thumbs up to bumping it up and stirring up crazy shizz ering!
Oh, and HOLLA - they just hooked me up with the SWEETEST @ss room! Totally private, one be
I'm totally in for creating Bump drama. Man, it's been a long time since I've done anything like that around here.
Sounds like you're doing great, all things considered!!
I am glad to hear you are in good spirits. Still praying for all of you.
The private room is awesome- glad they were able to move you.
Jonathan Dean 4.5.08
Anna Capri 5.4.11
It sounds like you are in the best situation possible... given the best situation is not possible! First, what a relief that you are all doing ok physically... I'm so glad that you are in regular clothes and eating food. It sounds silly but I mis
Well, for the situation you are in, you are certainly making the best of it!
Really hope they can send you home very soon so you can be more comfortable and home with your pup. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
#1 12.11.11
#2 10.23.13 EDD
Oh man, what a rough go of it. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. There are so many things about being pregnant and giving birth that really make you feel a loss of control over your body and your life. It's even harder when you're type A personali
I'm just getting caught up here. I'm glad you're hanging in there. Have they sent you home or are you still at Pennsy?
DS#1 spent a month in the ICN there and I can't say enough good things about them. We still
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DD 7.11.09
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