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It's been FAR too *LONG*, my friends!!
Wow, I can't believe the hiatus I took. My siggy will give you an indication of how long it has been. I missed you ladies! Mailyn and I have met up a few times and I'm always dying to hear how everyone is doing, and then my heart breaks when I find out one of you is struggling with something and I wasn't there to support you. I'm so sorry for that.
My H is taking steps toward his career change. I don't remember if I mentioned it on here. If I did, I would have gotten in trouble, because he is only now becoming comfortable about talking about it with VERY SPECIFIC PEOPLE. But anyway, he's transitioning into nursing from accounting/finance (180, I know!). So he is in school right now doing prerequisites for any nursing program and he is in an STNA course to become certified so he can take a weekend job doing something and get some experience. In fact, that's where he is right now. It's been hard having him so busy, it feels like when he worked in public accounting and I just never saw him. I wake him up in the morning before I leave for work (at 6am) and he gets home at 10:30pm and studies until 2am. When I go to bed at 11, he's been "tucking me in." This is so not a sexual reference, he has literally been putting me to bed like my parents used to do when I was a kid: he will lay next to me for a few minutes, maybe talk, but sometimes I just fall asleep. I did ask for that at the very least - I didn't have that luxury when he was in public accounting. This STNA class is almost over, so I should have him in the evenings again. And our weekends should be more open because he hasn't had time to study during the week, so he studies on the weekend. I knew it would be hard, but I forgot how much it sucked.
I started a Bible study on (every other) Monday nights and that has been really good. It's about thinking purely. It's helpful because when I get down on myself I now have the tools to stop my thoughts from running rapid and digging me into a nasty hold of depression. One of the biggest issues I'm struggling with now is my baby fever. I. Want. Children. So. Badly. I work at a daycare so I am with kids all day and all night. And they aren't mine. A few weeks ago I had rough day at work was when a 7-year-old had a migraine. I'm sorry, but I'm pretty sure 7-year-olds shouldn't get migraines. When I called his parents to come pick him up, the mom hung up on my call so I couldn't even leave a message, and the dad said he couldn't leave work early. My next call was Child Protective Services. It so pisses me off when people are blessed with children and they don't care. I drove home crying that day telling myself I wanted to adopt him. But I know that would never happen. He's just such a sweet kid and doesn't deserve that crappy home life.
I hate to admit that one of the reasons I haven't been back here for so long is that I'm afraid talking about babies and watching everyone get pregnant will make everything worse for me. My H says he wants kids, but we are just not in a good position to have kids. He has quite the baby bucket list. Fine, I get it, and he knows I get it, but I hope he understands that I don't care. That I'm just waiting for his green light.
On a positive note, I'm doing really well in school, and H and I just paid off our cars!!! That was on our baby bucket list, and we had been talking about doing it for a while, but last weekend we sat down and did the math and we were like "oh wow, we can do this right now!" So we did! Another exciting financial decision we made is that instead of living off of Nick's salary, and saving mine, we decided to do the opposite: live off of mine and save Nick's. He makes 2.5x what I make, so... Yay for living on Ramen!
Thanks for making it through this WHOLE post. I missed you ladies a lot! I've been lurking a little the past few weeks so I kind of have an idea of what everyone is up to. I just haven't had time to post :-/ And thanks, Mailyn, for remembering me still! 
Re: It's been FAR too *LONG*, my friends!!
Oh boy you've been busy!! Glad to hear that things are well and you're getting so much accomplished!!
Glad you're back, I've missed seeing you around here
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