Getting Pregnant
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Update
Thank you all so much for the love and support!
The appointment went as well as could be expected. I mean, I'd rather be getting beta 2 done tomorrow, but since I'm not, this went ok.
Next FET will be in January for several reasons. I have some non-TTC things going on that I need to get through before taking this on again, plus, the RE thinks a short mental/physical break is a good idea at this point. We have three embryos left and will transfer all of them at that point. If it doesn't work, we are done with TTC and will focus on the adoption of a non-infant sibling set through our state. That is the adoption option that we both prefer over domestic infant and international.
I feel ok today, which is actually a good thing. I didn't cry in the appointment. I sat with the finance person and figured out costs (our fresh and frozen cycles were part of a package.... This next is not).
Many of you commented that life isn't fair. You know, parts of it are not. I didn't deserve to give birth to a dead baby. I didn't deserve IF. No one does. But life has been good to me in general. These are two intertwined battles that I, and science, can't explain.
I go back and forth about how far we should go. We know I can get pregnant and can carry a baby. Do we keep doing this until it happens again? Or do we say enough is enough?
The fact is, regardless, we will have a family and it will be full of happiness and love. And we can't adopt without going through this, so as much as it sucks, maybe it is just how our journey is going to go. We are, and will continue to be, at a peaceful place. And maybe we will end up with biological kids, and we will be able to tell them that we fought hard for them. We wanted them very very badly.
I've known all along that our journey has been challenging, but it hit me this week. It has been HUGE. We have gone through a lot... A LOT.
Anyway, I'm rambling now. But... January. Fingers crossed.
The appointment went as well as could be expected. I mean, I'd rather be getting beta 2 done tomorrow, but since I'm not, this went ok.
Next FET will be in January for several reasons. I have some non-TTC things going on that I need to get through before taking this on again, plus, the RE thinks a short mental/physical break is a good idea at this point. We have three embryos left and will transfer all of them at that point. If it doesn't work, we are done with TTC and will focus on the adoption of a non-infant sibling set through our state. That is the adoption option that we both prefer over domestic infant and international.
I feel ok today, which is actually a good thing. I didn't cry in the appointment. I sat with the finance person and figured out costs (our fresh and frozen cycles were part of a package.... This next is not).
Many of you commented that life isn't fair. You know, parts of it are not. I didn't deserve to give birth to a dead baby. I didn't deserve IF. No one does. But life has been good to me in general. These are two intertwined battles that I, and science, can't explain.
I go back and forth about how far we should go. We know I can get pregnant and can carry a baby. Do we keep doing this until it happens again? Or do we say enough is enough?
The fact is, regardless, we will have a family and it will be full of happiness and love. And we can't adopt without going through this, so as much as it sucks, maybe it is just how our journey is going to go. We are, and will continue to be, at a peaceful place. And maybe we will end up with biological kids, and we will be able to tell them that we fought hard for them. We wanted them very very badly.
I've known all along that our journey has been challenging, but it hit me this week. It has been HUGE. We have gone through a lot... A LOT.
Anyway, I'm rambling now. But... January. Fingers crossed.
IUI - BFP! Baby boy born still - August 2012
IVF - BFP - miscarriage June 2013
FET - BFN
FET - BFN
Switched clinics
IVF with PGD - three embryos created, all healthy - July 2014
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
Baby Boy born July 2015
Re: Update
TTC September 2013 | BFP 11/21/13 | Chart | EDD 8/3/14 | It's a girl!
DD born at 42 weeks 1 day | 8/18/14 5:33am | 8lbs 4oz 20.25in of perfection!
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
I admire you and your strength and how you can be at such peace with the hand you've been dealt.
Cycle 8,9,10 - 50mg Clomid - BFN
B/w 1/8: betas 17,345, progesterone 25.6
TTC#2 4/14
A Parachute in an Oak Tree: A World of Love
The Rowdy Roberts
~TTC Buddies with akcrrr and amandaf6383~
Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
BFP 2: 7/7/2014 Beta 7/8: 115, Beta 7/12: 638, Beta 7/16: 3793, Beta 7/21: 21,625
Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter
TTC Since January 2011 - We have bad spermTTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
I think the other ladies covered it all.. I continue to be impressed by your attitude and strength. I'm pretty sure you know we're all pulling for you, and crossing things and all that good stuff, but it also doesn't hurt to be reminded...
:-hAfter 2 years of TTC, lots of tests, and a Hysteroscopy/Laparoscopy to remove several polyps,
Clomid/IUI #1 3/14: cancelled due to surprise BFP 3/8/14.
Beta 1 3/11: 398 Beta 2 3/13: 728 Beta 3 3/20: 11,482
Surprise BFP turns into Surprise Twins!
Zoey and Garrett born 10/24/14 at 36+3
Our Little Raspberry-Born 3/27/12
We Said I Do 09/06/09
Big big ((Hugs))
Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
B Born 6.27.13
~ S & L 8-25-12 ~