Thursday Randoms

SnShne322

It's Thursday, so what are your randoms?

RiverPlate

My assessment cycle concludes right before I go on maternity leave.  If my management team doesn't put me forward for a promotion (they should have last year, IMO), I will be spending my maternity leave updating my resume.

sfgiantsjo

My local radio stations are all a buzz with the "news" that a local TV reporter (who was reporting outside of a Miley Cyrus concert, no less), got a runny nose, and instead of using a tissue to catch a snot stream, she ate it. On TV. Although it IS disgusting, it is most decidedly NOT news. 

MrsJenE

I can't handle FB today.  Actually, I can't handle it most days, but today is especially bad.  It's making me long for baby talk and pictures of food.

So of course I vague FB'd.

Hoycie

I recently found out something about two friends and I'm in complete shock.  I would love to smack some sense into friend A and I am utterly disgusted by friend B and have written her out of my life and from all social media. 

booneybear

I was so out of it this morning that I woke up at 3:00 thinking it was 4:00 and therefore I was at the gym wicked early because it was pointless to go back to sleep at that point.  Now I am bitchy and irritable from lack of sleep.  

MrsJenE

sfgiantsjo said:

My local radio stations are all a buzz with the "news" that a local TV reporter (who was reporting outside of a Miley Cyrus concert, no less), got a runny nose, and instead of using a tissue to catch a snot stream, she ate it. On TV. Although it IS disgusting, it is most decidedly NOT news. 

I'm going to pretend I never saw this.

SnShne322

I'm wearing (what I think are) cute shoes today. I realize they might not be for everyone, but J called them my wicked witch of the west shoes.  They are green and black striped loafers. It was too late to change them and now I'm feeling self conscious.

Young_Love

MH got laid off about a month ago - BOO

He got two job offers within a month - YAY

He took the one that lets him work from home and stay home all day with the dogs - YAY

Although I love that he can stay home with the dogs, I get a little resentful of him being able to work from home - BOO

Because this is a work from home job, he has to train at the office for three weeks. The office is an hour away. - BOO

They are putting him in a hotel for those three weeks. I will be alone for three weeks - YAY/BOO

booneybear

SnShne322 said:

I'm wearing (what I think are) cute shoes today. I realize they might not be for everyone, but J called them my wicked witch of the west shoes.  They are green and black striped loafers. It was too late to change them and now I'm feeling self conscious.

EliStar

I'm resigning tomorrow. 

Holy crap. Holy crap. Holy crap. 

MrsJenE

EliStar said:

I'm resigning tomorrow. 

Holy crap. Holy crap. Holy crap. 

EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fabk

I am currently fitting in new clothes that fit me. The shirt even buttons over my boobs with fabric to spare. I feel like a million bucks. 

packfan20

My brother's GF "flies" - as in does trapeze stuff.  I just bought a Groupon to the place she goes so we can go "flying" together.  I am beyond giddy about this.  My mother and BFF think I'm absolutely insane.

SnShne322

booneybear said:

SnShne322 said:

I'm wearing (what I think are) cute shoes today. I realize they might not be for everyone, but J called them my wicked witch of the west shoes.  They are green and black striped loafers. It was too late to change them and now I'm feeling self conscious.

Ok, now I'm super self conscious if Booney's giving the side eye.

dmlk413

My child is acting like she's possessed lately and I just can't handle it.

MrsJenE

SnShne322 said:

booneybear said:

SnShne322 said:

I'm wearing (what I think are) cute shoes today. I realize they might not be for everyone, but J called them my wicked witch of the west shoes.  They are green and black striped loafers. It was too late to change them and now I'm feeling self conscious.

Ok, now I'm super self conscious if Booney's giving the side eye.

I think we need a picture of these shoes.

fabk

SnShne322 said:

booneybear said:

SnShne322 said:

I'm wearing (what I think are) cute shoes today. I realize they might not be for everyone, but J called them my wicked witch of the west shoes.  They are green and black striped loafers. It was too late to change them and now I'm feeling self conscious.

Ok, now I'm super self conscious if Booney's giving the side eye.


Can we get a pic?

Mrs.GinTN

We're supposed to wear pink to work today to support a co-worker who has breast cancer.  I just keep thinking "We wear pink on Wednesdays." 

SnShne322

They are almost identical to these.  I'm wearing them with skinnies, a blouse and a cardigan.  I know they aren't for everyone, but I didn't think they were that bad! I mean, they aren't crocs!

PhoenixRising11

Those are cute!

I am going back to the doctor today for another check on my wrist (I fell last Tuesday and have been in a cast for a week because the initial x-ray was inconclusive), which will involve cutting off my cast and doing another x-ray and then hopefully declaring it just a sprain so I can go back to work tomorrow. If I can't go back to work, I have to go out on disability because I can't do my job (I am a NICU RN) with a cast on my hand. I am worried that if I have to be out of work for a long time (if it is broken, it could be eight weeks in a cast), I will lose my ever-loving mind.

I have not worn pants with a button and zipper for a week and a half because they are too hard to put on.

fabk

@snshe322 I would wear those...but am usually not a fashion icon. I do think they are cute though!

Menrandes

Ok, dudes, this is serious. 
I have a lot of health problems, most come from either my Lyme or my Celiac.  I get new symptoms on a very regular basis and most of the time I ignore them because if I didn't I would be at the Dr's every week.  It's a balance of figuring out what is ok to ignore and wait out and what is not.
Well, this new thing I can't ignore.
Last night we found a lump.  It's painful, which I hear is actually a good thing.  But I'm a bit freaked out.  I know that most likely it's nothing, but still.
I feel like I take really good care of myself as much as I can.  My diet is healthier than it ever was because, frankly, food scares me.  I get so many symptoms related to food that it is hard for me to eat anything that I don't specifically prepare myself.  And I go hiking and biking whenever my energy allows for it.  Sometimes I push myself too much, but I don't like the feeling that Lyme in particular controls my life. 
But I'm feeling a bit cheated in my life.  It's been years since my Lyme diagnosis that came too late for it to be taken care of easily.  And I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
And now this new thing? 

PhoenixRising11

Sending good thoughts your way, @Menrandes!

mrsvedo

@Menrandes sending lots of T&Ps and hugs. Hope your lump turns out to be nothing serious.

sassypants527

Menrandes said:

Ok, dudes, this is serious. 
I have a lot of health problems, most come from either my Lyme or my Celiac.  I get new symptoms on a very regular basis and most of the time I ignore them because if I didn't I would be at the Dr's every week.  It's a balance of figuring out what is ok to ignore and wait out and what is not.
Well, this new thing I can't ignore.
Last night we found a lump.  It's painful, which I hear is actually a good thing.  But I'm a bit freaked out.  I know that most likely it's nothing, but still.
I feel like I take really good care of myself as much as I can.  My diet is healthier than it ever was because, frankly, food scares me.  I get so many symptoms related to food that it is hard for me to eat anything that I don't specifically prepare myself.  And I go hiking and biking whenever my energy allows for it.  Sometimes I push myself too much, but I don't like the feeling that Lyme in particular controls my life. 
But I'm feeling a bit cheated in my life.  It's been years since my Lyme diagnosis that came too late for it to be taken care of easily.  And I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
And now this new thing? 

>:D<  As someone with chronic issues I can understand where you're coming from (food scares me too.  I totally get that!).  You are not alone and we're all thinking great big positive thoughts for you right now. 

sassypants527

I'm super bummed out that my Aerogarden died overnight.  I love that thing!!  DH probably won't let me get another one right away because we took one of the cats to the V-E-T this morning (he's fine but has to take heartburn meds now.  Yay to pilling a cat. X_X ) and that cost $175. 

sfgiantsjo

Menrandes said:

Ok, dudes, this is serious. 
I have a lot of health problems, most come from either my Lyme or my Celiac.  I get new symptoms on a very regular basis and most of the time I ignore them because if I didn't I would be at the Dr's every week.  It's a balance of figuring out what is ok to ignore and wait out and what is not.
Well, this new thing I can't ignore.
Last night we found a lump.  It's painful, which I hear is actually a good thing.  But I'm a bit freaked out.  I know that most likely it's nothing, but still.
I feel like I take really good care of myself as much as I can.  My diet is healthier than it ever was because, frankly, food scares me.  I get so many symptoms related to food that it is hard for me to eat anything that I don't specifically prepare myself.  And I go hiking and biking whenever my energy allows for it.  Sometimes I push myself too much, but I don't like the feeling that Lyme in particular controls my life. 
But I'm feeling a bit cheated in my life.  It's been years since my Lyme diagnosis that came too late for it to be taken care of easily.  And I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
And now this new thing? 

I totally empathize. I got very sick in my early twenties. It took a long time to get a diagnosis, and once I had one, we couldn't get my disease under control. I was on a ton of meds, and those brought on serious side effects, and eventually led to other permanent problems. And with each new thing, I thought the same thing - "I can't handle one more illness, or one more pain, or one more thing that is bothersome, annoying, tiring, etc..." Being in pain every single day, and being tired every single day, and worrying about what you eat every single day gets old real quick. Eventually, you never really think of anything else, because your mind is so constantly occupied with wondering if what you are doing or eating is going to cause more pain, or if this new symptom means anything.  And you start to live this new existence where the pain is just always there, and you don't even realize how bad it is. Your new normal is just excruciating.

It's exhausting and SO frustrating. I would cry and break down completely so often. It takes a toll on friendships, and your marriage, your job, and even your family. 

You know what, though? You CAN get through it. And I don't mean there's a miracle cure out there. I just mean that you are strong, or you can learn to be. You can learn to manage as best as you can. And you can learn to live without bitterness (not that you are bitter, but I know I sure as heck was) about your lot in life, or at least not let the bitterness win everyday.  I know it sucks, I do. It most certainly isn't fair. I found that engaging with groups of people living with similar issues really helped. Talking honestly with family and friends helped, too. And wallowing in it when I needed to. 

I say all this to you not  trying to be preachy. I'm not even really suggesting you aren't already doing all of those things and more. I just wanted to let you know that I was, and often am still, right there with you.

I hope this new thing is nothing serious, and I hope whatever it is can be dealt with quickly and it is not one more thing added to your plate. But know that there are people out there who understand, and listen!

sfgiantsjo

MrsJenE said:

sfgiantsjo said:

My local radio stations are all a buzz with the "news" that a local TV reporter (who was reporting outside of a Miley Cyrus concert, no less), got a runny nose, and instead of using a tissue to catch a snot stream, she ate it. On TV. Although it IS disgusting, it is most decidedly NOT news. 

I'm going to pretend I never saw this.

Oh, they have links to the video. Which I did NOT watch. But sheesh. NOT NEWS.

Menrandes

sfgiantsjo said:

Menrandes said:

Ok, dudes, this is serious. 
I have a lot of health problems, most come from either my Lyme or my Celiac.  I get new symptoms on a very regular basis and most of the time I ignore them because if I didn't I would be at the Dr's every week.  It's a balance of figuring out what is ok to ignore and wait out and what is not.
Well, this new thing I can't ignore.
Last night we found a lump.  It's painful, which I hear is actually a good thing.  But I'm a bit freaked out.  I know that most likely it's nothing, but still.
I feel like I take really good care of myself as much as I can.  My diet is healthier than it ever was because, frankly, food scares me.  I get so many symptoms related to food that it is hard for me to eat anything that I don't specifically prepare myself.  And I go hiking and biking whenever my energy allows for it.  Sometimes I push myself too much, but I don't like the feeling that Lyme in particular controls my life. 
But I'm feeling a bit cheated in my life.  It's been years since my Lyme diagnosis that came too late for it to be taken care of easily.  And I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
And now this new thing? 

I totally empathize. I got very sick in my early twenties. It took a long time to get a diagnosis, and once I had one, we couldn't get my disease under control. I was on a ton of meds, and those brought on serious side effects, and eventually led to other permanent problems. And with each new thing, I thought the same thing - "I can't handle one more illness, or one more pain, or one more thing that is bothersome, annoying, tiring, etc..." Being in pain every single day, and being tired every single day, and worrying about what you eat every single day gets old real quick. Eventually, you never really think of anything else, because your mind is so constantly occupied with wondering if what you are doing or eating is going to cause more pain, or if this new symptom means anything.  And you start to live this new existence where the pain is just always there, and you don't even realize how bad it is. Your new normal is just excruciating.

It's exhausting and SO frustrating. I would cry and break down completely so often. It takes a toll on friendships, and your marriage, your job, and even your family. 

You know what, though? You CAN get through it. And I don't mean there's a miracle cure out there. I just mean that you are strong, or you can learn to be. You can learn to manage as best as you can. And you can learn to live without bitterness (not that you are bitter, but I know I sure as heck was) about your lot in life, or at least not let the bitterness win everyday.  I know it sucks, I do. It most certainly isn't fair. I found that engaging with groups of people living with similar issues really helped. Talking honestly with family and friends helped, too. And wallowing in it when I needed to. 

I say all this to you not  trying to be preachy. I'm not even really suggesting you aren't already doing all of those things and more. I just wanted to let you know that I was, and often am still, right there with you.

I hope this new thing is nothing serious, and I hope whatever it is can be dealt with quickly and it is not one more thing added to your plate. But know that there are people out there who understand, and listen!

Oh I do get bitter sometimes.  Not as much as I used to, but it is hard not being able to keep up with people and it's hard not being able to hold down a regular job.  That's something that I actually feel a lot of guilt for, especially when money is tight.
But the way I feel now is much better than I felt 5 years ago.  When my symptoms first appeared, they were mostly psychological in nature.  It was hard to get anyone to take me seriously at that point. I would have scary symptoms like depersonalization and panic attacks that would last hours.  At one point I wondered if I had died and was in my own personal hell,  Scary thoughts. 
I'll take the chronic pain I have now over those symptoms any day!  Sometimes they come back, but not as frequently as before.
I try, in general, to remain upbeat.  I mean, I do push myself and try to enjoy life.  I love to go backpacking and camping and bike riding.  Sometimes after doing those things I have to lay in bed for a few days after to recover.  But that's worth it to me, to actually be living and doing the things I love.
I feel like I'm rambling now. 
But I just want to say thanks to everyone for the happy thoughts. 
I don't have a lot of close friends anymore, and it's nice to have people to talk to. 

fabk

Menrandes said:

Ok, dudes, this is serious. 
I have a lot of health problems, most come from either my Lyme or my Celiac.  I get new symptoms on a very regular basis and most of the time I ignore them because if I didn't I would be at the Dr's every week.  It's a balance of figuring out what is ok to ignore and wait out and what is not.
Well, this new thing I can't ignore.
Last night we found a lump.  It's painful, which I hear is actually a good thing.  But I'm a bit freaked out.  I know that most likely it's nothing, but still.
I feel like I take really good care of myself as much as I can.  My diet is healthier than it ever was because, frankly, food scares me.  I get so many symptoms related to food that it is hard for me to eat anything that I don't specifically prepare myself.  And I go hiking and biking whenever my energy allows for it.  Sometimes I push myself too much, but I don't like the feeling that Lyme in particular controls my life. 
But I'm feeling a bit cheated in my life.  It's been years since my Lyme diagnosis that came too late for it to be taken care of easily.  And I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
And now this new thing? 

Big hugs!!