Confession Friday

minionlover

The confessional is open.

goatlady12

I confess that I forgot the workout thread this week.  I'm just going to skip it this week and post next week.  My sister's thyroid biopsy was on Wednesday and my mind was elsewhere.

Also, I had a bad test result from my last kidney function test and I'm feeling really gloomy.  Also my baby goat that broke his leg isn't healing properly and now amputation is looking like a real possibility.  I'm trying really hard to not be negative, but I'm sort of failing.  I left work early yesterday to sit at home and be sad.

ramstein1027

I deleted it bc I felt guilty.  Ugh.

mana8503

Oh no @goatlady12!  I hope everything works out!  So sorry about your goat.  

I got a bottle of wine last night.  I plan to have a glass while nursing (so it'll be out of my system by the next time I nurse) a few times tonight.  Mama misses her wine!

ETA - also i'm so sick and tired of dealing with insurance crap with the BM.  We keep getting EOBs where the hospital is trying to charge my insurance, when BM is suppose to be covering them now.  I scan and sent it to her and she's like is this a bill?  NO NUMNUTS it's just showing you they are trying to charge my insurance - you need to straighten it out with the hospital.  After 5 times, this isn't something new!  /rant

WillyH19

I confess I am not dressing my kid up for Halloween. I've never been a big fan of the holiday and it is on a Friday and H will be working. I will be passing out candy and then putting the baby to bed, so I see no need to put him in a costume.  I feel like a bad parent for not wanting to celebrate this holiday. 

WillyH19

sorry your feeling blue @goatlady12

goatlady12

WillyH19 said:

I confess I am not dressing my kid up for Halloween. I've never been a big fan of the holiday and it is on a Friday and H will be working.

 

***QBF***

 

mrshall1027

I'm so sorry @goatlady12  Sending you lots of hugs.

sjs1013

I confess that I am very afraid of going back to work. Last night I went to the movies and H said O cried the entire time I was gone. She wouldn't take a bottle or anything.

I also confess that maybe my mom was right and O is too attached to me.

sjs1013

@goatlady12‌ I hope things get better soon!

mrshall1027

WillyH19 said:

I confess I am not dressing my kid up for Halloween. I've never been a big fan of the holiday and it is on a Friday and H will be working. I will be passing out candy and then putting the baby to bed, so I see no need to put him in a costume.  I feel like a bad parent for not wanting to celebrate this holiday. 

brainybrunette

@goatlady12‌  Sending lots of hugs!

WillyH19 I don't blame you, there will be plenty more years for costumes. I'd put him in a Halloween onsie and call it a day!

WillyH19

brainybrunette said:

@goatlady12‌  Sending lots of hugs!

WillyH19 I don't blame you, there will be plenty more years for costumes. I'd put him in a Halloween onsie and call it a day!

Yup, that's the plan! Thanks for the validation!

ramstein1027

Well @WillyH now I EXTRA appreciate you trying to read my book if you don't care for Halloween!  

Halloween onesies are totally legit, btw

catwine

@WillyH19: my parent's never dressed up for Halloween and my brothers and I turned out alright(ish). No seriously, we never minded.  

My confession is that I cried sad tears when I found out a friend of mine is pregnant. Her husband posted it on FB and I sat at my desk and literally cried out of jealousy and then got angry at myself for feeling anything but joy for this couple.  

mana8503

E will wear her my first Halloween sticker with either her pumpkin hat or the black and orange hairband I got her.

WillyH19 said:

brainybrunette said:

@goatlady12‌  Sending lots of hugs!

WillyH19 I don't blame you, there will be plenty more years for costumes. I'd put him in a Halloween onsie and call it a day!

Yup, that's the plan! Thanks for the validation!

E will wear her my first Halloween sticker with either her pumpkin hat or the black and orange hairband I got her.

mrshall1027

catwine said:

@WillyH19: my parent's never dressed up for Halloween and my brothers and I turned out alright(ish). No seriously, we never minded.  

My confession is that I cried sad tears when I found out a friend of mine is pregnant. Her husband posted it on FB and I sat at my desk and literally cried out of jealousy and then got angry at myself for feeling anything but joy for this couple.  

I'm so sorry @catwine.  I remember feeling exactly like that every time I heard someone I knew was pregnant.  I think the worst one was my H's ex wife.  She had just gotten married on New Years and told us she was expecting two weeks later.  We had just finished our failed IF treatments.

It's really normal to be upset, angry, sad, frustrated, etc. so let yourself be and don't feel guilty about it.  I really hope you get your BFP soon!

WillyH19

Hugs @catwine it hurts when you hear announcements when your ute is aching for a baby. Your feelings are all valid. I'm really hoping you get your BFP soon!

catwine

thanks @WillyH19 and @mrsmarshall1027.

  and I'm sorry everyone else for being such a whiner.  I know there are ladies who's TTC journey has been going on for a lot longer than mine.

LDubHawksFan

@catwine I missed this last week because I'm not as active from Friday on. I saw reference in your TTC post and wanted to check on you.

I'm so sorry you are hurting. I know the feeling oh so well. I've cried many times over announcements and it makes me feel like a horrible person because I don't want to be that jealous person. However, you need to know that those feelings are normal. And TTC is hard throughout the journey, so even though some have been trying longer, that doesn't make your feelings less valid.

((Hugs))

catwine

Thanks @LDubHawksFan  I never would have guessed I'd have those negative feelings so I'm glad I'm not alone.