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Thank you...
for all your thoughts and prayers. I truly appreciate all your responses to my post yesterday. Thank you for those who sent me recommendations too. Thank you also to those who contacted me "off nest". Having nestie support is quite a blessing.
I'm so glad to have a place to be able to share and vent freely, and to receive feedback. As it stands, I still don't know what's going to happen. Yesterday was really difficult for me, but I made through my entire day at work without making a scene. I cried when I posted and then at lunch, but that was it. I got a little teary here and there, but as long as I was productive I was a-ok.
I wanted to make sure I gave DH his space, but I also want him to know that I'm thinking of him. Finding that balance was hard, but it turned out ok. We talked last night about 'normal' stuff(not the stuff I posted about) and it felt better. Man was it hard to refrain from demanding an aswer, but I didn't. LOL. I know he's been talking to his friends and trying to sort through stuff and I'm doing my best to stay out of it. It's like some kind of messed up lottery and I have to wait to scratch off the gold circle.
The hardest part so far is trying not to feel like a doormat(which I don't), because I'm waiting for him to decide and on the flipside trying to not too push him to make a decision. So, I'm acting as if and waiting. Grrr. I've got plans in place for whatever he decides to do. I need to know ahead of time what I'm going to do, because I just don't do well thinking on the fly. I'm ready and I think I'm prepared for whatever direction this will go...but I'll only know once I'm in "it". And tonight's the night. The ball is in his court, so I hope he brings up the subject tonight. If he doesn't...I'll give him til tomorrow night to bring it up...and then it's on like donkey kong. 
In any case, thank you ladies. Your kindness and support mean the world to me.
Re: Thank you...
again with the long post! Sorry....