I quit! Meaning, as of next Thursday, I won't have a job. I don't have to work. I don't have to care what happens at work and I don't have to care how or who and what my editors will have to do to ensure my beat gets covered (the corporation that owns us is soo glad I quit, one less person to lay off, so my spot won't be replaced any time soon.)
So, I quit. And yet they keep saying, "oh, have we talked to Sascha about maybe doing one freelance story a week?" and this morning, during our staff meeting, they posed a slightly-desperate plea if I would stay on to do just CIty Council meetings for a while. And I say "well, maybe..." because I'm too spineless to say No! That's why I quit! I can't handle work and baby anymore! I can't handle late-night meetings (Even when they are webcast) and staying up all night or getting up at the crack of dawn to write about them!
No, no, no! Why can't I just say no and walk away?
Re: Why can't I stand firm??
I understand how hard it is to "just say NO". I'd like to LOVINGLY remind you to focus on your priorities....you, Blair, and your family. It's so hard, I know it was and still is for me in regards to keeping balance between family & work. You'll be ok... just practice say this with me... "Sorry but I can not do that at this time."
Good luck! Stay strong!