I have appreciated the emails from KGG and MrsMJP. I really have. I haven't responded because I truly don't want anyone to figure out who I am.
We've had a couple more big fights. And I just don't give up. I want to make sure my point gets across and I think (well, know) that it pisses him off. Like, I have to have the last word when he's telling me just to stop. I'm like that annoying yapping dog that just won't stop. I'm not afraid of him. He's never really hurt me, just startled me.
I haven't talked to my family about anything because I'm not ready to leave. I'm just not and hope it won't come to that. Kelly said something in an email to me about a mutual lack of respect and that is a huge part. I think part of my problem is that I don't deal well with stress and, well, I'm stressed with life in general.
I did recently talk to a friend about some things that have been said and she knows a little bit about something physical. I think some of our fights are hormonally related. I'm having a sad week but it's not his fault. It will pass but weeks like this make me think about leaving, even though he didn't do anything else.
If I decide to leave, I'll update, but as of now, I just can't/won't.