Sick With Grief

Duchess1

This was almost an omg omg omg post.

Our phone rang two hours ago. They had a baby for us,a newborn 2 days old, straight adoption. She doesn't even have a name yet. I said yes and paced in shock and joy while S raced home so we could go pick her up.

20 minutes later they called us back, oops. Someone Fu*cking moron made a teeny tiny mistake. That baby was not ours to pick up. She is on a 72 hour hold and then there is some legal mumbo jumbo. They legal nonsense will determine who gets her. We will probably not even be considered by then.

Cruel. Senseless.

I am so angry, so heartbroken. For an hour I was a mom. We were so happy, my mom was so happy... it was a dream come true.

I can't tell you why it hurts to lose something you never really had but oh my god, it hurts.

I wish I had never started this, it's too awful.

I think this is G-ds way of telling me to give up, and so I will.

 

 

TheSongAllAlong

The blog post of this just popped up on my google reader and I came right here. I'm so sorry this happened but who knows maybe you will still be considered for this child after the 72hr period  and if not then this was just not the child meant for you, but there is still one out there. I know how hard this has been on your heart but in the end when you have your child the one who was made to be yours you will realize it was all worth it. Please don't give up, i have so much faith that you will get everything you little heart desires and you will be the best parent anyone could ask for.

kandykidsaturn

There isnt anything i can say to make you feel better, so I'll just send hugs and love from chattanooga, tn.

Jessica Stewart

I'm speechless hun, and very, very sorry.

PP makes a good point, you *may* still be considered ....but for now..... lots of hugs are being sent along with well wishes from phoenix, az.

Two*True

((hugs))

cookiemonster03

big hugs...

leapgirl8

Oh, please, please don't give up. Take your time to grieve and be angry, but don't give up. It took my cousin so long and she fostered so many kids before she finally got to adopt, and now she has two young boys and a beautiful baby girl that are finally, legally her own. In the meantime she really touched the lives of a lot of kids who needed someone to be there for them during the toughest times of their lives. Your dreams will come true too, I know it.?

cymru

Oh honey I am just catching up on things now and my heart broke for you. Scoop and I keep hoping that your baby will come along quickly, we are sending every good vibe we have out into the universe for you. Don't give up... they are out there waiting as impatiently as you are.

{hugs}

~Kennedy