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PCP/TTC/ATP Wednesday
What's new ladies?
QOTD: What scares you most at the stage you are currently at in this family journey? Is it a healthy pregnancy? Knowing how to care for a newborn? Figuring out how to potty train 3 year olds? 
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Re: PCP/TTC/ATP Wednesday
Beta is tomorrow.
QOTD: I'm terrified of another chemical pregnancy. Almost to the point that I can spontanously burst into tears. I'd much much rather get a BFN tomorrow than a low beta with no hope. My c/p was just a cruel mind fvck. K didn't really understand it which made it all the worse. I just want to be done with tomorrow so I can move on either way.
big temp drop this morning.
QOTD: i'm scared that this isn't going to work. terrified that we'll never know what it feels like to see two lines.
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Still frustrated that try 5 did not work.
QOTD: scared that the next time won't work...I can stay positive I think, and yet I know this is so hard for DW. we are not sure what a next step would be if we do a few more tries without success.
I am terrified that I am never going to be able to stop buying pull-ups. LOL. Seriously, at one point, Gray was 90% there. Now he is 15% - MAYBE. Carter is actually doing better than Gray at being dry - but NO ONE will poop in the potty. Sigh.
We need to suck it up and do another potty training boot camp, which sucks since it requires us to stay home all weekend and take them every 15-30 minutes all day long. It is exhausting to say the least.
I can't tell you how much I would love saving that $150/month in pull-ups.
I'm sorry darling. ((hugs))
Ella is about the same. Her spells are really short just dips in her heart rate and she gets herself out in seconds. Hopefully they will become fewer so that we can stop talking about putting her back on cpap. She had to have another echocardiogram because they they thought they heard her pda again.but it ended up being something called a pfo. This is good since they just watch that and don't treat it. If it had been the pda she would have had to have heart surgery. This was making me want to vomit. She is also having some eating issues. She is not digesting all her food from each feed. It is just a little but it could point to some problems. They are also increasing her feeds so it may be she is having trouble keeping up with that. They have held several of her feeds due to this. Hopefully she can get better with this if she doesn't she needs to get a picc line for her iv. She had her ubilical central line removed the other day and now just has an iv in her leg. If she can get to full feeds she will not need an iv and that will be one less tube coming out of her. She is also having trouble pooping which is prob.why she is having trouble with her feeds (things are backing up) she did have a really good one yesterday so lets hope that is a new trend.
So much for the medical side. Ella is really cute. She loves her kangaroo care time and just sleeps through on either S or my chest. She doesn't like wet or dirty pants and lets us all know about it. She also get mad when she is hungry. The nurses and Drs all say she is super cute we agree but we can't tell if she is blowing smoke up our a$$.
The thing that scares me the most is the unknown of nicu. I am scared all the time that Ella will have a set back or there will be a problem. I pretty much want to throw up all the time. I also miss Ella like crazy but know that she needs to sleep and rest so we try not to spend to much time messing with her. I hate that we only can hold her 1 time a day so I only hold her every other day. I hate that she doesn't know me like a regular baby does. Pretty much I am just plain terrified.
Nothing new. We are registered with our bank now, and are starting the process of placing our order. There's some paperwork that has to go back and forth between us, the bank and the midwife's office, which could all take some time, so I'm getting started this week to make sure everything's done and the sperm is at the midwife's waiting by a week before my estimated ovulation. I don't want to take any chances!
QOTD: I'm scared it's not going to work. That months and months will go by with no results.
sahm ~ toddler breastfeeder ~ cloth diaperer ~ baby wearer
Sam- I am so sorry. Hang in there. The NICU can be a scary/terrifying place and yet a very safe place since you know Ella is getting the care she needs. I know that you hate that she isn't bonding with you - but she will. You all will have an entire lifetime of hugs, kisses, tickle fights, giggles, and special moments.
Keep asking questions of the medical team and use this time to take care yourself and each other - cause when she comes home - you'll jump on a whole 'nother rollercoaster of excitement!
I know this won't really mean much but this cycle was the first with open tubes, so maybe looking at it like round one won't hurt so much? Your DW will still have better odds the next two rounds since she had the HSG so hang in there, your BFP could be right around the corner. ((hugs))
Thanks two....we are trying to think that way...it is just that as much as we tell ourselves that and know that scientifically that is the truth, we still have the emotional memory of the first tries. You are right though....and we are doing a little better on thinking of it that way every day.
Sam - I'm thinking of you and Ella all the time. I can't imagine how hard it is to have such little time with her and all the worries. You'll get through it and Ella will be home with you where she belongs. Hugs to you and Sue.
CT - I'm so sorry. I really thought this was going to be it for you and A. Hugs to you both.
Two - I'll be thinking of you tomorrow!
madison - I know it's easier said than done, but I'm with Two on starting your count over. I'm crossing my fingers for a bfp next cycle!!
sahm ~ toddler breastfeeder ~ cloth diaperer ~ baby wearer
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big hugs, sam. i can't imagine what you're going through, but you are both amazing women and ella is so lucky to have mommies like you.
c's back has been really hurting her a lot. i'm a bit worried about the camping trip this weekend with the air mattress and her having to get up and down. i'm tempted to go out this evening while she's at darts to see if i can find a taller one that isn't too expensive. other than that things are going well, she's really starting to show now and i can feel lots of movement which is so amazing.
qotd: oh, man, i have to pick just one? i think, right at this moment, my biggest fear is that i don't feel like we're ready. i mean, we're ready to be mommies, but we're so unprepared to bring him home. we haven't even started on the nursery or actually picking out furniture or carseats or gotten a registry going or anything like that. i mean, we've talked about some of that stuff but we have so much to DO, you know? it's a bit overwhelming.
M/S is still kicking my ass. In particular I'm waking up twice a night to pee, and my stomach feels so horrible that I keep dragging the trash can over next to my side of the bed in case I have to barf (tmi, sorry). This morning I felt so ill that I couldn't get much down and it took so long to eat what I did that my whole morning was thrown off and I ended up missing my train. I'm praying that I'm one of those women whose m/s ends with the end of the first tri.
QOTD: I terrified that even though we had our great first ultrasound, with a nice strong heartbeat, that we'll go into our 12w ultrasound and find out we lost another little one. I don't know what the hell I would do, and I try not to think about it because I'm sure we'll be fine and the baby is fine... but I can't help this horrible, gut wrenching fear. That part makes me almost happy for the m/s!
Maybe I don't have a heightened sense of smell, but I've never smelled any vagina on my pants. -- TSD
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Of course you're terrified... nicu is scary. But you seem to have a strong girl on your hands and while it seems long now, before you know it she'll be turning a year old and these will all just be faded memories. I'm thinking of you guys everyday and I'm praying that she continues to have good progress.
Maybe I don't have a heightened sense of smell, but I've never smelled any vagina on my pants. -- TSD
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True, I am sending so MANY POSITIVE THOUGHTS and ENERGY your way!
I understand what you are saying. I remember when I found out about your c/p, C had to explain to me what it meant...I cried. I felt that it was so UNFAIR! I was so sad for you and K.
I'm sending love and support to all of you. It's such a hard process and so scary. Hoping the best for all of you.
QOTD: I am scared of everything right now :-)
P.S. Here is a little secret. I have ordered new donor profiles and we are very slooooowly and cautiously considering making our way back onto the TTC train.
oh Sam, hugs. You're at a great facility and even though its hard I have a lot of faith she'll turn into a strong little girl in a few weeks.
QOTD: I'm really worried about money at this point. We really want to jump ship and do it. I'm acutally considering pricing daycare so we can work the budget with real numbers.
Then I'm worried about time management. If we do this now, not in 2 yrs, C will have a horrible commute and I'll be alone with the baby a couple nights/week.
Updates: Tentatively planning our first ttc cycle to be October with two insems, possible after an HSG but I won't know for sure until Sept when I see my OB/GYN.
Scariest thing is all the PCP stuff we still have to do, especially the stress of selling/buying/moving along with learning to manage my stress and change my lifestyle at the same time. I'm currently focusing on diet and will soon add yoga/meditation to the mix, so hopefully it will be do-able.
Coming late to the post...
Lots of big ((((hugs)))) to everyone. You are all in my thoughts.
Update: We are waiting for our first ultrasound, which will be next Thursday. Someone once characterized the first few weeks of pregnancy as a series of intense, compressed twws. I know what she meant, now. I stay happy and positive most of the time (really, what else is there to do? we may as well enjoy every moment), but of course the Big Fears are lurking just around the corner of my mind. I still haven't told anyone "irl" (literally... zero people) that I'm pregnant.
I do have some mild symptoms off-and-on most of the time, but if I hit an hour or two where I don't have many, I worry. I never thought I would pray for heartburn, but I have!
QOTD: I can't bring myself to name my biggest fears out loud, but I imagine most of you can more or less guess what they are. On a more superficial level, I am worried about the potential reaction(s) from our families. In particular my parents and S's daughter.
We got a phone call the night of our first beta from my second-to-youngest brother saying that his wife is pregnant (their 3rd). She's 5 weeks pregnant; hasn't even had an OB appointment yet. I am worried that my mom will choose to be at the birth of that child rather than here at the birth of our child.
IUI #3 gave us the best 2nd anniv. gift ever: 2 babies! (born 03/09/10)
Peanut and Little Man are getting so big! 2 years old already!
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I have a *teeeensy* update, that is Katie is likely going to get an interview for a job that could allow us to speed up our process. I told ya it was teensy
AOTD: Other than actually getting pregnant- it would be taking care of a newborn. I'm totally comfortable with ages 2+, but I have very little experience with babies. I sometimes worry that I will just sleep all night and let the baby cry :-/ Katie says I'm being silly, that I'll do great, but I do likes my sleep! Oh, and I definitely worry about PPD (I have a history of depression). I don't want that to come back!
A little late but here is our update:
After our appointment with the RE was bumped last week it is officially on for tomorrow. I'm super excited but very nervous at the same time. I just want to finally be able to get pregnant and feel like we are making the right move by switching from our ob/gyn.
QOTD: I'm terrified that I'm going to find out that something is seriously wrong and I won't be able to get pregnant. Carrying a baby is something that I've thought about for so long that the possibility that I won't be able to get pregnant scares me. Call me selfish but I really want to experience pregnancy and would be totally bummed if I didn't get to.