well, that didn't help

mzjackson

I've been a total mess, this entire day. I finally decided to gather my thoughts & take C out to the splash pad.

Spending time was nice, but I couldn't avoid the thoughts of J or G. I swear, everything made me think of her & the baby. I saw a dad carrying around a baby, and just cried.

This is so incredibly hard to grasp, I can only imagine Phillip. I can only think of miss G when she's old enough to ask questions. My heard just aches.

JENNB1101

mzjackson:

This is so incredibly hard to grasp, I can only imagine Phillip. I can only think of miss G when she's old enough to ask questions. My heard just aches.

I keep thinking this over and over.

klmbride05

((((hugs))))

DarbyKat

I know. Every time R smiles at me I cry because J will never see precious G's smile. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

sherthebear

DarbyKat:

I know. Every time R smiles at me I cry because J will never see precious G's smile. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

I feel exactly the same way. i just keep thinking of little G. 

katdcliff

DarbyKat:

I know. Every time R smiles at me I cry because J will never see precious G's smile. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

That's pretty much where I'm at

BeckiC

DarbyKat:

I know. Every time R smiles at me I cry because J will never see precious G's smile. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

That's how I've felt all day. I just got irritated b/c L is climbing ALL over me. And then I stopped myself and gave him a big hug and kiss.

klmbride05

Exactly Irma! I have thought that ALL DAMN DAY!

~*BREN*~

DarbyKat:

I know. Every time R smiles at me I cry because J will never see precious G's smile. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

This exactly.  I can't stop crying.

Jewelyn had offered me so much support when she found out about my loss.  I will miss her dearly.  I was so happy when she got pregnant!  I just hope that little G will know how amazing her mother was.  She was seriously one of a kind.