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I just want to share with all of you...

I just wanted to share this with you ladies...since I share everything else under the sun :)


Yesterday when I was driving home from moms group, as Austin was sleeping in his car seat, I realized and finally honestly truly felt that I really feel like I know what the hell I am doing as a mother. I really do know what he needs, even though for 17 weeks I haven't felt that way....I've felt so clueless since the day he was born, even though everyone was always telling me to trust my gut or that I knew my son best....I didn't feel it....constantly second guessed myself if I was doing the right things for him....but I really feel it now....so long as he grows to be a loving, kind, honest and caring person, I know I have done my job right. Granted I know there will still be times when I second guess my own judgment, it's only normal, but I feel like I am getting the hang of being a mother and actually ENJOYING it!

Austin is such an alert, happy and content baby and just over the past few days he seems to be so different....he looks at me so lovingly it fills my heart.....and as sad as this may seem....since it has been 17 weeks since his birth, I can truly say that I fully love my son. I knew I loved him before and would do anything for him....but it's different now, I never had that overwhelming joy people experience with the birth of their children....and I can honestly say that I feel that love for him now....I don't know why it took me this long to feel that way, I often thought I might have PPD....but I am so unbelievably happy that I am finally where I am....I was just looking at him tonight while he nursed and he is just the best thing that ever happened to me.

anyways....thanks for reading....
 

Re: I just want to share with all of you...

  • YAY!!!!!  And now you have to be really careful, because this is when you are most in danger of getting bitten by the baby bug again!!!!

    This made me tear up with happiness for you, BTW   :)

  • You made me tear up too!! I wouldn't worry about the length of time it took you to feel this way, it's hard to love someone so deeply when you feel like you don't know anything! Glad things are going well for you :)
  • That's awesome Lisa...I know exactly what you mean!
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  • YAY Lisa! i am so happy for you!  Im glad that you didnt beat yourself up too much.  As first time parents (and even me, as a soon to be 4th time mom) it is scary not knowing! I am glad that you are finally confident in yourself as a mom! Austin is going to be GREAT!!!   He has amazing parents!
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  • I can really relate to you ladies who are moms now....I really, really, really get IT!
  • Thats great Lisa!!!!

    It took me awhile to finally " get it" too... so not to worry!!  = )  Its the best feeling in the world!

  • That just brought tears to my eyes. ?Beautiful.
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