::sniffle::

**O-Face**

I got my dress, and I tried it on.  It fits, but just not *quite* how I wanted it to.  Looks like I will buying some spanx after all, or at least trying it with a different bra.  ::sigh::

I really need to get my ass in gear and stop eating such crappy food.  

Butter Cookie

Or, stop being so hard on yourself. You're probably never going to look in the mirror and go, "I'd fuckme. I'd fuckme hard" but you're frigging gorgeous and you need to just shut your mouth.

 

 

**O-Face**

I seriously love you.  You need to come live in my head.  I know I'm beautiful (I try to tell myself daily), but it's hard when you know where you WERE and how much you've gained.

 

gained weight=/=ugly.  I need a mantra.  

Also, I have to realize the lights in the bathroom are for sh*t.

Butter Cookie

I know people think it's cheesy, but maybe you should start putting a post-it on your mirror that says positive things about you. "I'm beautiful, smart and strong" say it to yourself every day. Couldn't hurt, right?

 

**O-Face**

I've heard of that. I should say "feck em" the ones who would question that, and pull out my bright pink stick-ups.  Yeeahahhh

Butter Cookie

Well, I meant at home, but w/e. You can be part of the project beautiful or whatever it is and break out a whole stack-o-stickies and start putting them in every bathroom you happen across.

**Stinky!**

I think you two need to get a room.

Butter Cookie

 

pssst... O... I think they're onto us...

**O-Face**

LOL.  Maybe.

 

I meant, if I put up stickies at home and people came over and were all "what is that?".

baconsmom

It's never YOU. It's the CLOTHES. Seriously, this idea was a revelation to me. I used to put things on and they'd fit weird or not at all and I'd have a screaming meltdown because obviously it was all my fault that some random manufacturer didn't make something to fit me.

Yeah. See how weird that sounds?

Try a new bra. Try different panties, even. Try a shaper if you want to - I am not part of the anti-Spanx fattie brigade, because I have inappropriate jigglers that need, sometimes, not to jiggle. But always remember that it's the clothes. It's not you.

**O-Face**

Yes, I understand that all too well, BM.  I'm trying to find a good in all of this.  I guess the good is in the motivation to get healthier and eat better.  I will be trying a different bra this evening, and a shaper tomorrow if I don't feel I look better with just a different bra.