I don't know why I am saying this now, but I didn't say it as it was happening because I guess I still feel a bit new on here. I was a very involved knottie and haven't quite felt the same groove here as I had there, yet. Anyway,
DH and I have been TTC since July 09. On 12/17, I found out I was pregnant. On 12/21, I found out it was a miscarraige and on 12/23 I had a laparascopy and D&C performed to remove the ectopic from my tube. It was horrible and painful and I was so drugged for 4 days that I slept right through Christmas.
Some might remember that I miscarried back when I was planning my wedding in 2007. This isn't as bad this time emotionally. I guess for the most part I just am frustrated at the loss of possibility. But, there are days, like today, where it just hits me that I was pregnant, and now I am not, and it sucks, and I am sad.
Just needed to get it out and for someone to hear me. We will get pregnant again, but I really wish I didn't need to.
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I remember you from the knot days.
I'm sorry you're having a rough day. The Christmas stuff sounds bloody awful and it's no wonder there are emotional aftershocks. I hope you feel better soon. Can you treat yourself to a nice dinner or glass of wine or something tonight?
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UGH! What the hell?!? You sure don't deserve for this to happen to you again. I'm very sorry.
It hurts, I know. I hear ya. I'm gonna email you in a second.
As for this part, I hear ya on that too. It took me a REALLY long time to feel comfortable on here. Once I went to a couple of GTGs I felt much better, though. It'll get more natural! I'm always (usually,lol) around so I hope that helps ya a little bit!
Oh, thanks ladies. I wrote that, then went to lunch, and it was so nice to have the kind words to read when I got back. It feels funny to post something like that in the hopes that someone will read it and say something nice, but I really needed it today. Thank you.
I'll be ok. I don't even feel like this every day. It just sucks when I do.
i'm so sorry for your loss.((((((((( big hugs )))))))))
nesties are great at having an open ear anytime you need to vent/talk. and ditto about posting on the babies board... there are lots of women who have had similar experiences and are incredibly supportive.
Oh man, that just sucks. I'm so so sorry.
(((hugs)))
TTC #1 since February 2011
BFP #1 1/14/12 EDD 9/24/12 m/c at 8w4d on 2/20/12
March 2012- Dx with PCOS, started metformin
July 2012- SA completely normal
I'm so sorry for your loss.