I'm a little bit nervous...(ttc related)

TeamRivera08

but excited too. I hope its cool to post this here, but the bump and gp boards kind of scare me, and the Novembies board is like my happy place on the nest :-). 

Anyhoo...we were going to post-pone our clomid/fertility doctor appointment, until July-ish. Originally due to financial reasons, but we are caught up and paying things off, and have been good at budgeting and saving money every week (enough so to start upping the amount we are saving). So, DH and I talked and talked...and decided to go ahead and see if I can't get an appointment later this month or next month.

I'm kind of nervous/scared...partly b/c I'm afraid they'll either tell me sorry, your a fat a$$ and need to lose more weight first, and the whole scary new adventure of it all. Partly b/c I was getting really good at convincing myself that I'll survive if we don't have kids.Partly b/c I do have some health concerns I worry about (I have a blood-clotting disorder, so if we are successful, I'll automatically be referred to high-risk specialist doctor and be on blood-thinners). But I'm also excited to have children, and play with them and teach them things. Just a very odd mix of emotions that I can't really explain. Of course, this is if this current cycle was a complete bust, which I'm starting to think it might be. 

Sorry so long...had to vent/get it out :-). 

kdonedizzle

Well that is exciting!   I do understand about protecting yourself by saying that you will be ok sans kids.  After 30 temping cycles, I have had many a nights saying that I just am not meant to be a mom and that something else more important is out there for me.  I get it.  BUT......at least seeing the dr. and figuring out what is going on or if something will help you guys along is totally worth it. 

TeamRivera08

Exactly! It's been year, but b/c my cycles are so long, I've only had three cycles. I'm kind of hoping there are other options besides clomid, but we did discuss starting it in the spring at my yearly, so we'll see what they say. I'll post some here about it, but also in my blog.

kdonedizzle

If it is just for ovulation stimulation then make sure they dont JUST suggest Clomid.  There are others out there that have far less side effects and are much safer for you.  I'm excited for you hun!

jweat013

Karrey has way better advice and insight than I do, but I'm wishing you luck as well!

veruca5839

Wishing you lots of luck!

TeamRivera08

Thanks ladies!

Karrey - only 8 more days till surgery!!  

LorelaiOctoberBride

Yes,it's definitely exciting!... and I'm sure it's not easy having your mind go back and forth, but wishing you two the best here!

breannek.ot

Good luck!

kdonedizzle

TeamRivera08:

Thanks ladies!

Karrey - only 8 more days till surgery!!  

I know!  I am freaking out.  But in a good way.

hudysgirl

Good luck! I really hope this all goes well for you!

TWiNKfly

It's okay to be scared. Uncertainty (Will I ever be a mom? Won't I?) is the worst thing to deal with. I hope you get some good news and they can start you on a plan of action!

JackandCassie

Good luck, lady!

amlinton1615

Good luck!

TeamRivera08

Thanks ladies - I really appreciate it!!

And the doctor appointment is set! Tuesday, March 30th at 3:45, so now we're just hoping DH can get free from work for a little bit to join me. Not a must have, but would be nice, of course.

Crossing fingers that this cycle works and I can call and cancel :-).