Since I missed yesterday.....

JustCallMeMrs.P

...I have a couple confessions.

 

*Yesterday it really finally hit me how much (in an immeasurable way) I really love this baby. Yes, he's 13 days old now, and that makes me feel like a horrible person - for taking so long to feel that way - but I do. Of course I loved him before, but I was still feeling this sort of detachment, like it was still unbelievable that he is here and he is mine. 

 

*My DH is having a hard time helping me in the middle of the night. Its not a big deal because Collin is an awesome sleeper already, but its very discouraging and makes me not even want to bother waking him up to just do a diaper change because he just comes across as being pisssed off or grumpy, even if he doesn't mean it. I am afraid eventually this will take a toll on me, though.

 

*I am feeling really anxious about not going back to school for the beginning of the year becauase I am afraid of who is going to be in my classroom. I obsess about how my room looks and where things are and my curriculum and I am terrified when I return in a few months it is just going to be chaos. 

 

*I wish I had more time to get things done around the house. We have had paint to do our hallway for over a month now and I haven't been able to do it. I'm sick of looking at the ugly walls every day. 

mrs.magoo

JustCallMeMrs.P:

 

*Yesterday it really finally hit me how much (in an immeasurable way) I really love this baby. Yes, he's 13 days old now, and that makes me feel like a horrible person - for taking so long to feel that way - but I do. Of course I loved him before, but I was still feeling this sort of detachment, like it was still unbelievable that he is here and he is mine. 

I didn't fully bond with Austin until 17 weeks, so don't feel bad at all - this is a whole new person in your life and you have to get to know him It's a great feeling when it happens though, isn't it?  

JustCallMeMrs.P:

*My DH is having a hard time helping me in the middle of the night. Its not a big deal because Collin is an awesome sleeper already, but its very discouraging and makes me not even want to bother waking him up to just do a diaper change because he just comes across as being pisssed off or grumpy, even if he doesn't mean it. I am afraid eventually this will take a toll on me, though. 

I went through this too and it did take it's toll on me - make sure you wake your hubby up, grump or not! 

Victoria808

Regarding the night time stuff... my DH was up in the night with me for the first two weeks without too much complaint... then when he went back to work, I found myself being the only one getting up.  He would get up when I told him that I was way too tired or that I knew she wasn't hungry, but still.  Anyway, fast forward to about 5 weeks, I had him get up with her for the first time in about 10 days, and he TOTALLY messed up my schedule with her!!! I never thought I'd say it, but night time is me and Anna time, no Daddy unless I'm in desperate need of sleep. (maybe I'm a bit of a control freak! haha that's my confession in your confession post!)