I had a ton of drama with my mom today. She's in a mentally abusive relationship and keeps saying she's going to leave. We haven't really had much of a relationship since she got involved with this guy. The only time I talk to her is when I see her at my little brother's sports games or when she calls me asking for help to leave her boyfriend. I'm always there to help her, but then she turns around and stays. I'm well aware that it's difficult for women to get out of abusive situations. It's very clear to me that this boyfriend has a huge hold on my mom. I'm just becoming mentally exhausted by the constant push and pull. I can't take much more of it. Part of me wants to just tell her goodbye. Part of me,though, wants to still help her because she's my mom.
I probably won't write tonight. I'm just exhausted and not in that kind of mindframe. And I'm SO close to hitting 10k, too. Ugh.


