Feeling really bummed and just a little bit stupid.

ChrissyDipi

So John and I had what we thought was the best news! That I am pregnant. Last week I took the test and had a + and then went to the doctor on Friday. Then I went back for some follow up blood work today and headed to work.

I had a meeting once I got to work and during the meeting I announced to everyone that John and I are expecting. I wasnt' going to annouce so early, but it is my last week in this position because I got a new job so I wanted to spread the good news. When I got back to my desk I had a missed call from the Dr. office. My blood work came back and my HCG levels had dropped to below 2 (they were 50 last week and should be doubling every 2-3 days). They want me to come back on Wednesday for another test.

This is leading me to believe that I am miscarrying/ chemical pregnancy. I am really bummed. I thought this was the one. We have been trying for a few months now and it is starting to get a little frustrating. I feel stupid because I have practically announced to the world that I am pregnant and now I might not be.

 I am really trying to stay positive but I can't seem to find it right now. I just want to find a corner to hide in.

All of my friends around me are pregnant or just had babies and it was so easy for them, but for us it just isn't coming so easy. I thought this was the one. :-(

Thanks for listening.

preciousgrl120

I'm really sorry you're going through this!  I know that feeling of uncertainty and having to wait is very frustrating, especially because you're afraid to get excited for a BFP, but it's inevitable to feel excited about it no matter how hard you try.  I hope that things work out and everything is fine!!

RonCourt

 best of luck.

kpsHoneyBear

Aw, sorry to hear that you are feeling like this    No one will think that you are stupid, though.  That kind of news is extremely exciting!  I'm sure that everyone will be very understanding.  Hopefully you hear back from the Dr. soon!  Let us know how it goes.  Good luck!!

benmel31

Oh, I am sorry to hear how you are feeling.  Just wait and see what the doctor says!  No one will hold it against you, no matter what the outcome is.  People understand!  Good luck and try to not get frustrated while you are trying.

sherbear1322

I'm so sorry you are going through this.  I hope that it all works out and that the baby is sticky.  If not, I hope that all of those around you are supportive and respect the difficulties that go with a loss.

wickeesgirl117

So sorry to hear! I hope that those around you will be supportive in any way you need to be. Plus, you always have us. T&P for you, your husband & family and those around you.