I'm still learning the controls on this new laptop (was my dads idea for my bday gift and my whole family chipped in). So i somehow closed the window AGAIN on a whole post i had written with no way of getting it back. SO Aggravating.
The flowers you sent to the funeral home were wonderful and so pretty. You girls mean so much to me....you are better than most of my IRL friends!!!
I'm having a hard time adjusting to life without my dad, obviously. I'll be starting counseling soon to help me get through this. Sometimes im just numb and none of it seems real. Other times i just have to break down and cry my eyes out. I'm trying to be strong, mostly for my mom and sister, but i know dad wouldnt have wanted me to be so broken because of this.
Zig took my dads telescope from our workshop and put it in our living room today. He loved it so much and gave it to me when i moved out, because I was the only one of us 3 girls that turned into a science geek. It was kinda our thing, that and old cars.
I'll tell you more another time. I can only come on and talk a little here and there before i start to get more upset.
P.s. my little orange kitty is laying on my feet snoring right now. Oh how my dad would have loved him if he had been healthy enough the last few months to see him full grown.
Love you ladies tons.


Re: Thank you and update
I can't imagine the pain you fell Kim.
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us.
my read shelf:
You Grew in My Heart instead of My Tummy
Proud Step-Mama to Clayton- 11/8/03
Proud Step-Mama to Amelia- 11/16/04
Proud Step-Mama to Brennan- 6/10/06
TTC OUR first
BFP#1 10/8/11, Blightened Ovum 10/17/11, D&C 10/18/11 @ 7w4d
BFP#2 6/10/12, EDD 2/14/13 ~Team Green! Grow baby Grow! Stick baby Stick!! IT'S A GIRL!!! Abbigaile Mae 2/21/13 7lbs 6oz 21inches 4:15am
Hope you are doing ok.
That numb feeling was with me for a little while- and it actually helped to go to work. I was new, they didn't know me, everyone was supportive without being too personal.
Even now, 5 months later (as of yesterday), so many things trigger memories. I'm starting to remember without completely breaking down in tears... so there is hope!
I haven't been around lately, so I missed hearing that your dad has passed away. I'm truly sorry for your loss. I know the girls here are a great support for you, so lean on us/them however you have to. Take care of your self Kim.
Two Wonderful Years. 7.10.2010