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I want to cry
I need to share some vents; I feel like if I don't at least get them out, I'm going to lose it today. Please bear w/ me; I'm sorry if it ends up long.
I have severe pain in my left shoulder. Its been an on again/off again issue for many years, but lately it has gotten so bad that I can't function very well. Massages used to give me a decent amount of relief for awhile, but I just had one 2 & 1/2 weeks ago and it didn't help. So H finally convinced me to see a chiro, and I was fortunate to get into one yest (same day I called), and the prelim stuff shows two pinched nerves, one in each shoulder, the left one being the worst. I also have a spot about mid back and right around my hips (both on my spine) that are all effed up that are contributing to not only the pinched nerves in my shoulders, but a whole other host of crap. I'm going back to review the xrays they took tomorrow night and they want H to go w/ me. Yest they did this electromagnetic stimulation stuff on the 3 problem areas, then a massage to try & release the pressure (which felt nice) in my shoulders from the pinched nerves, then a relaxer thing for the same issue. I got home and was hurting so bad, not unbearable but enough to be bothersome. Before I went in I was at a 6/10 on pain, now I'm about an 8/10. He told me that it will hurt, but geez. I slept like crap b/c randomly I will get a shooting pain in my shoulder, which isn't anything new I'm just looking for this to be better. Its a little painful even trying to raise my left arm to a certain point.
I'm also going to see my PCP this Thurs and have a bunch of bloodwork done. I've been feeling really off for awhile now and I would like some answers as to why. I've always had a problem sleeping, but for the past year its gotten worse and even taking a prescription sleeping pill every night isn't helping anymore. I'm completely exhausted 15 mins after doing nothing more than walking around. It almost feels like my body hasn't slept for a day. Its wearing on me so badly that I want to cry. I feel like a loser and an inconvenience to my H for only being 31 and having a whole host of medical issues. He is so patient and understanding, and for that I'm extremely thankful. Its just hard for anyone to understand what its like. Its not only stress but I truly feel like there is something wrong, which is why I want some answers.
I just want to feel better. I hate not having a shred of energy ever, not being able to sleep, or being in pain. I'm hoping that now that I am going to a few different dr's to have some things addressed someone can figure something out. Thanks for sticking it out this far; I just feel alone in all of this and needed to get that out. Phew!
Re: I want to cry
Man, this sucks. I want to cry for you. I think once you at least get the sleep situation better you will feel more capable handling the pain. I have trouble sleeping (and always have) so I take a Advil PM every night. But if you are Rx sleeping meds and those aren't working, I am not sure that the Advil PM would do anything for you.
I don't have any good advice. I just want you to know that I feel for you and here's a big *HUG*. Hang in there and be sure to get to the bottom of everything so you can get on the road to recovery.
Thank you both for the words of encouragement. It means a lot to me. I've been suffering and putting up with so many little health issues and over the past 5 years they have compounded, and now the past year has been the worst.
I'm having them test my thyroid (among other things) this Thurs when I see my PCP. Lupus runs on both sides of my family, too, and I want them to test for it. I just want to feel somewhat normal again. I won't even ask for 100% better, just better than I am b/c I feel like at 31 years old, I should NOT be feeling this crappy every single day.
I'm frustrated and its upsetting, but I appreciate being able to come here, blow off some of my frustrations, and know that I have some hugs waiting for me. You ladies are the best.
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One of my biggest complaints is that for all the years I've been putting up w/ the multitude of issues, not one of my previous dr's ever said "hey, we should look at all avenues, such as blah, blah, blah". I've since replaced a vast majority of my dr's with ones I feel are genuinely concerned w/ my health and well being, so I'm also hoping to get a good array of information and hopefully some answers, too. I hadn't considered fibro; on my list so far I want them to check my thyroid, my anemia, lupus and I will add fibro to my list. I want to be well educated and to know that there is some type of solution b/c I its extremely difficult for me to live a "normal" life the way that it is right now. Its difficult for people, my H included, to understand how I feel. Its difficult some days to find any motivation or drive to get off the couch and I miss having a desire to do things that I really enjoy.
On a positive note, I went to the chiro on Monday night. I was feeling kinda rough/sore yest. On my way home from work last night I got a call and low and behold it was the chiro that I saw on Mon. Not his office, but him personally. He wanted to see how I was feeling since they did a few things and also that he was looking forward to seeing me tonight to get the next step done. How's that for awesome?! I'm still in a little bit of shock b/c I've never had a dr do that before and I felt very happy that even though he only saw me for an hour, he took time out of his evening to check on a new patient.
At any rate, I will keep everyone posted on any new developments. At this point, I don't think I mind too much what diagnosis I get so long as its accurate and we can start working on it. You all made me so feel soooo much better, so thank you very much!!