March 2009 Weddings
OSUWifey09
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Our tech team has launched updates to The Nest today. As a result of these updates, members of the Nest Community will need to change their password in order to continue participating in the community. In addition, The Nest community member's avatars will be replaced with generic default avatars. If you wish to revert to your original avatar, you will need to re-upload it via The Nest.
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Let's do a round of vents/confessions.
We haven't done this in a little bit...whatcha got ladies?
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I have no desire for sexy time. I feel like I am waddling. I looked in the mirror today and feel huge.
I feel like (I've not admitted this or typed it out anywhere) I haven't found a bond with being pregnant...like I don't mind being pregnant I guess, but I just am blah about it. Like what if I am just blah about the baby? I think some of this stems from the fact even though I know I am not alone, I FEEL alone. H isn't the aw let me feel your belly type and I just feel as though he is wicked disconnected. I cried last night to sleep for no reason, yay hormones. I am also crazy sick of my mother posting on my wall or statuses telling me what to do, how to do it, and when to. No, not a lot, but I need to tell /ask her STAT to stop. Or she gets privileges revoked.
I'm sick of only thinking about baby related things. I was glad when my boss brought the work stuff up to me. Part of me wants to get/take/accept either director level position.
I'm caught up at work [and I purposely took longer to catch up than normal so that I'd have things to do], and I'm bored now. Maybe I'll catch up on Grey's - I've been ignoring it all season and, come to find out, it's actually not that bad at the moment.
I almost bought a pair of shoes that had a 4.5" heel. I'm 5'9.5"...with those shoes on, I would've been like, 6'1" or something ridiculous like that. I almost bought them so that I could be the same height as H when I wear them. But I didn't - not sure my clumsy self in that high of a heel is a good idea. [i did buy two pairs of flats though, mwah ha ha]
Photo please.
Another: I miss heels. I miss cute jeans. I miss drinking. Yup. There I said it.
Work related:
I am confused. The point of hiring an employee engagement person was to have one person to coordinate engagement and recognition efforts. Not only are department directors still doing their own thing (which is fine) when we tell them they can no longer have $10/person for their "recognition week" (aka nurses week or doctors day) someone mentions that our electronic health record project manager is heading up a committee on ways to reward people without spending money? Isn't that my job? I mean, it doesn't get more "my job" than that. I vote they take employee engagement out of my title and let me focus all of my efforts on seeking, applying for and maintaining grants.
Other:
Riddle me this. Why is it when I pump 3x a day I get a total of 14 oz for the day, but I've pumped twice today and got 16 oz? Either way I have no idea how much the child will eat each week so I'm 2 1/2 weeks ahead of her if she takes 16 oz a day and more if she takes less. It is hard to gauge and I need to just chill out and know that I'm producing plenty...I just want it to be closer to even than way ahead.
I am terrified I won't pass my exam on the 16th or won't graduate. Our sex life is non-existent and when it does exist, it's boring. I want children badly but am scared of being fat the rest of my life (I'm assuming if I get pregnant the way I am now, I'll never lose any of it).
I miss having IRL friends. My friends are either in grad school with me or..well, that's the only ones I have right now
PCOS and Endo
Ovarian drilling and endo removed 1/3/12
BFP - 3/27/12
Beta's 11, 14, 57, 637, 2800
Sono showed no baby and teeny tiny sac. Waiting to M/C naturally.
On that note, when we go to have baby #2 I'm not looking forward to the part of being pregnant where I don't feel like an awesome pregnant lady but I still can't do any of the fun things (which for my first pregnancy was a good 6 months). I really am not looking forward to the idea of not being able to drink beer during baseball season again...it blows!
And Jax, for me personally the feelings I felt while pregnant had nothing to do with how I felt towards my daughter.
I'm full of them today- can you say hormonal!?!?
And I know people may judge me for this, and that's fine, whatever. I also don't think I want to bf. I just don't think it's for me. It wasn't for my mother, either. I want my body back to myself after 40 weeks of not having it. Sure I've heard bf'd helps you lose weight quicker. That's probably the only reason I would consider it as of right now. Maybe it will change...but I don't want to have to pump at work. I want MH to share the night time feedings. I don't want it to be all on me. Everything else in our household I feel like already is, and I know logically it probably still will be all on me (caring/household/breadwinner) when the babe is born, but just the thought of him sharing some of the duties helps ease my mind.
You know what's funny??? I was thinking of you last night and thinking "Jackie doesn't seem like the type to breastfeed." Not that it makes you a bad person or mom in any way or that I was thinking it in a derogatory sort of way. I was just thinking of all of us who have had babies or will be having babies and how different our lives are/will be and the changes that we're making. That just happened to be a thought that crossed my mind.
ETA: I also think you have really valid reasons for not wanting to and do not take crap from anyone who tries to dish it up. They're ignorant jerks.
Thanks, Melissa. I feel like depending on when and where (time frame vs different part of the country) what people do about ff vs bf is very interesting. Like when my mother had my sister and I, it was all FF around her...not many of her friends bf. But now, it seems like everyone I know is bf'd...except one of my friends. and people who have no children are telling me oh try it, do this, etc...it's like...who the fvck are you to tell me what to do?
Anyways, long winded, but thanks. Also, really funny/strange that you thought of that-- and that I come across that way!
Oh Ashley, you will pass and you will do great!!!!
Here's the shoes:
I stand corrected - it has a 4" heel and .5" platform. So I'd still be tall - just not as tall. I still might buy them anyway - these are at Payless, the only store on this planet that carries cute shoes in a size 12 [that I've found to have readily in stock].
Foodie confession: the key lime pie I talked about in my FB status earlier? I might consume the rest of it [six slices] when I get home. OK, probably not, but the thought is ridiculously tempting. My pie success makes me want to bake more, which is NOT what I need for my waistline.
You are totally going to pass!!! I would be your IRL friend if I lived near you....I don't have any IRL friends hardly at all.
Our sex life exists but I am so not interested. I wasn't really all that interested before we got pregnant and I was actually happy to have a reason not to. I used to have a really great sex drive but when C and I started dating, we held off on having sex until we got married...so by the time we got married I didn't care anymore, and I still don't.
Cute shoes, Eb!!! You should buy them.
I love baking but it is not good for my waistline either...plus when I do it I feel like I have to rush so I can't spend the time I want on it!!
1. Shoes= love the style!
2. I wish I was closer. I would come over and share pie with you...if you let me share it ;-)
Same here. I didn't enjoy being pregnant.
I am so unproductive at work. I just don't enjoy it anymore.
I hate my job and until DH gets a job there's absolutely nothing I can do about it. Actually, I don't hate the job I hate the people.
I'm sick and tired to coming home to a house that is only messier then when I left it. DH is home all day every day except for about half a day on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and he never does anything around the house. He used to at least cook dinner, but no longer does that either. I'm getting more then a little resentful that he gets to do nothing but go to school and mess with his motorcycles while I'm expected to work, clean the house, cook and take care of Amelia. I know darn well that if I was the one staying home Amelia wouldn't be in daycare and I'd still be expected to keep the house clean and put dinner on the table.
Amelia is going to be a big sister!
I'm glad to hear the general consensus is pregnant =/= fun. The older I get, the harder it is for me to "see" things in the future. From a home renovation, to a completed meal, to having a baby: I need the process to be finished to feel much about it. Don't get me wrong, I totally love this little girl growing inside me, kicking away, but it's hard to be really connected to something that I'm having such a hard time envisioning.
Jackie, I totally don't blame you for not wanting to breastfeed. The only reason I'm trying it is because of the money aspect. I don't want to pay for formula! But I know after a few months it's going to get old. And I do not plan on being the only one to get up in the middle of the night for feedings. That is 100% not happening. I will pump, make bottles, and DH can have his turn at 3 am feedings too. They'll just be easier for me because I won't have to go downstairs to get the milk
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I'm really sick of DH saying he's a better driver then me. I've never gotten in an accident (knock on wood!) and this is the second time he's slid on ice/slushy snow. One time he ended up in the ditch, and this time a street sign.
I am also getting really annoyed that DH isn't trying to get our nursery projects done faster like I am. I don't think he realizes how much we have to do in 3 short months. It's frustrating when I'm trying to nest and he's inhibiting that!
The Sand in My Snow Boots
You're all probably going to laugh at me for this...
I feel sort of bad for making the same thing for dinner tonight that I made about a week ago. It's this Sour Cream Noodle Bake from Pioneer Woman. It's fantastic, and since you can make it with very lean ground beef and low fat dairy, it's not all that bad for you. It's just so good, and nothing else sounds even remotely interesting right now. I just feel like it's a cop out, but whatever.
I have spaghetti every single week - partly because it's one of JJ's faves; partly because I'm lazy and like spaghetti that much. Totally not a cop-out in my book. :P
Jax - I'll share the pie. You get half; I get half. Deal?
I think I may go ahead and buy those shoes. Payless has a 20 percent off thing going on right now, so the shoes would be decently priced. Yay new shoes!
I had a pizza pop, AND a hungry man, and Haagen-Daaz Half the fat Creme de Leche (VERY YUMMY!) for dinner last night. Tonight is pizza pops and ice cream. DH is gone for last night and tonight and won't be home until tomorrow evening.
I am not so impressed about going to the Dr. (OBGYN) without DH tomorrow. I think it is the "we've done all the testing and things and you can/can't have kids" appointment.
What's a pizza pop? And good luck tomorrow!
I have a work vent too. I'm sosososososososooooooo sick of having a "supervisor" and having her change sh!t about my job. I actually emailed her in response to something today saying "I'm just trying to understand this new change as it was ok for the past year that I've been doing this". Just leave me the F alone and let me do my job. We have a quarterly meeting on Friday with all the reps, and if anything comes up about my job I will flip out. Then blame it on the pregnancy hormones.
The Sand in My Snow Boots
I have confessions.
I'm thinking of ordering a pizza just for myself after Nate goes to bed. I already ate dinner with him at 5:30.
On the BF/FF subject: I loved FFing Nate and don't plan on even trying to BF this one.
There's a teenager in our church who travels around the country with a group that campaigns pro-life stuff, and I'm kind of afraid that I'll one day have to admit to her that I'm pro-choice, and then everyone in church will judge me.
You're definitely in my Ts and Ps Bonnie!
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Huge hugs Ash! You will definitely pass your exam and once that stress is out of your life maybe you will feel more interested in sex. Ts and Ps lady!
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Jax- No judgment here! I have never had a desire to bf. Never. I will probably try it just to say I tried when I start getting the Le Leche crazies condemning me for robbing my child of such an essential experience (or whatever the hell argument they come up with). There are some BSC bfing advocates on TB!
I am really tired of MH lately. Like, just in general tired of him. He got sick with bronchitis, which then became mono. He is horrible when he's sick! Such a baby and totally helpless when it comes to helping around the house. Yet he miraculously finds the energy to do work or other things that interest him.
Last night he was putting away dishes (I nagged) and he closed a cupboard and one of our decorative plates fell and hit him on the head! He ended up getting 5 stiches. You would think by his reaction he had major surgery!
I know this makes me sound like a uber-*** but he is driving me crazy with his pansyness!
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An actual confession: I thought I'd thrown away H's wedding rings and watches in a box I tossed out before I left for NC. With the funeral, I forgot about it...but I woke up this morning in a panic because I remembered again. I tore apart my apartment and my car - and finally found it in a bag in the trunk of my car.
They're now in a safe place. I will NEVER do that again.
I'm ready to strangle Greg.
I told you guys about how he hates his motorcycle.
Well...he decided to sell it on ebay (yea!) current bidding is higher than what his trade-in options were.
This is all good.
But....even though we have the money in savings, he never transferred the funds from our HSBC account.
He has a loan on the bike, which means he has no title.
His brilliant plan was to sell the bike with no title, pay off the loan with the sale $$ and then send the title to the buyer once we receive it. Total turnaround time would be roughly 30 days after purchase.
Who in the hell would buy a bike with no title? You wouldn't be able to register it, insure it...RIDE IT.
So....genius figures this all out today that it may not be the best plan and asks me to transfer the funds. This typically takes 3-4 business days. I initiate the transfer and then have to drive 45 minutes to my parent's house and get the payoff money from my dad ($6800) and in turn write him a $6800 check to be deposited on Monday.
What a PITA that could have easily been avoided with a little forethought.
Parents are the best.
I view breastfeeding as creepy.
I'd prefer to exclusively pump, but honestly, I'll be slightly relieved if I can't swing it.
My breast are sexual to me, not nurturing.
And the crazy bumpies that view it as a soothing tool for their infants/toddlers....that really freaks me the f*ck out.
I totally agree with this. I think I will eventually exclusively pump if all things go well. I don't really want to breast feed a one year old.
The Sand in My Snow Boots
I could have written this.
And if we do ever have children I really want more than one, because this is the point in life it's not easy being an only child, not to mention being married to an only child, I never realized how difficult it would be when my parents got older.
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