**Soprano**

2Vermont

So, your first post to me after your absence is to let me know what I could have found if I googled the rape joke?  Are you kidding me?  Did you even read through that whole thread? 

It's posts like that that make me wonder whether you really wish to bury the hatchet with me.   

 

soprano87

Hey 2Vermont.  I'm pretty confused by this post, but I went back and reread the entire thread.  I agree with hrparker that there was a miscommunication.  I was responding to these two posts of yours:

OK, I just did a search for "joke" and "women"...and I see no mention of the topic of this thread.....the joke that McCain supposedly made.

and

OK, I googled it and I also searched for the parts about his jokes.  As far as I can see, there is no mention of the "rape" joke.

The way I read those, it sounded like you had googled it but hadn't seen a mention of the rape joke.  That's why I responded sharing the results I got when I googled it.  I wasn't in any way trying to be rude.

Upon a second read of those quotes, I am guessing you were saying in the second quote that you did a search in the article, not a search on google.  It was ambiguous, and I think most people interpreted "search" as a google search. 

There truly is nothing nefarious coming from my end.  I am sorry you heard it that way. I know you are frustrated with the others in that post, so I hope you're just taking that out on me because you "know" me, and not because you really believe I was trying to pick a fight.  I have no interest in fighting with you, 2Vermont.  I hope this clears things up. 

2Vermont

I am happy to hear this Soprano....I really thought we were trying to mend things and I just got a bad feeling from your post.

That whole thread has just been a disaster....a whole lot of misunderstanding and miscommunication.  I am really scratching my head over here.

By the way, I'm not sure if you saw my other post to you in the original thread about the joke, but welcome back! :-)

soprano87

I'm sorry for the misunderstanding.  I like how we've communicated lately.  At least before things got busy for me and I went AWOL

Thanks for the welcome.  I won't be around nearly as much, but I missed y'all and want to check in when I can.

soprano87

p.s. How are things going with your job?  I remember you were trying to decide whether to go back, or potentially only stay till Christmas.  Did you return?  Is it better than you thought it might be (i hope!).  Extra stress is never helpful, so I hope it's been going well for you, if you're back at the same school.

2Vermont

soprano87:

p.s. How are things going with your job?  I remember you were trying to decide whether to go back, or potentially only stay till Christmas.  Did you return?  Is it better than you thought it might be (i hope!).  Extra stress is never helpful, so I hope it's been going well for you, if you're back at the same school.

Thanks for remembering.  I did return because I decided the last minute (2 weeks before school started) resignation would be unfair (not to mention the fact that it would piss off my principal..LOL). 

Unfortunately the year has turned out to be as tough as I suspected it would be.  It really has taken a toll on my mental health....stressed, overwhelmed, exhausted, etc just to name a few things I've been feeling as of late. In addition, I still question whether any of this has had a negative effect on my ability to conceive so far.  If I were to remain there and not conceive by the end of the school year I think I will always wonder what might have been if I had resigned.  At the age of 42, I believe one school year can make a difference. 

Because of all of this, I am still considering resigning...and it could happen sooner rather than later.  By starting the year, I have gotten the ball rolling for a new person...and I hope that this will lessen the blow for all involved. I have been in touch with my union rep and he has given me a lot of good advice.  It's a bit long winded so I won't bore you with the details...but I have written a draft letter of what's called a letter "anticipating" resignation (which is different than an actual letter of resignation) and it gives them about a month to start advertising my position.  

This has been one of the most difficult (if not the most difficult) decisions I have had to make...there are so many things (and people) to consider....not to mention that I'm no longer a single woman. 

Sorry to ramble....