I'm alone in my house for the first time EVER in the three years we have lived here. I am always with SOMEONE, whether it be DH, one of the kids, or the very least our dog but tonight my whole family is gone. I am hosting a baby shower tomorrow and had class all day yesterday and today so DH took Ella and our dog to Sun Valley to spend time with the in laws and my parents took Brody tonight so I could clean and they will watch him tomorrow until the shower is over.
Isn't it funny how you could kill for some time to yourself as a mom but then you get it and your heart aches like crazy? It's like I don't know what to do with myself without my kiddos around and someone needing me! I swear I keep hearing faux baby cries or dogs barking and start to jump up to tend to whatever the need is and then I realize its just me here. Its nice but unnerving a the same time. Luckily I've gotten a chance to clean the house and get organized for the shower tomorrow but I miss my kiddos. Sweet Ella apparently is having a blast at the lake and is swimming all by herself with a life jacket. When the heck did she get so big? And Big B is spending his first night without me so that's a tough one. I hope he does okay...
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Hope the shower goes great!