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Well, that was an emotional roller coaster.
Alright ladies, I'm coming clean... I stopped taking my pill back in Sept. but not because we wanted to be trying, more because I wanted to see what my body would need to do to regulate itself (apparently that included gaining 10+ pounds).
I've been fairly regular, a couple days late here and there which leads me to believe I have a long cycle but I was two and a half weeks late this month... I started spotting today but let me tell you, I really thought I was pregnant. I had a lot of symptoms but test after test was negative (including the one I took this morning).
I'm relieved that I finally did SOMETHING today - I was getting really uneasy in the middle ground. But I'm also relieved to see what my reaction was the whole time. Instead of fuh-reaking out, I was actually kind of intrigued by the idea and have really come to the conclusion that being surprised might be the way we need to do it because neither one of us is ready to just pull the plug for good. hahaha.
Anyways, I'm apparently not pregnant now but I'm very relieved to know when the time does come, I'm going to adapt pretty easily. I even took a trip to Babies R Us to test it out and I actually enjoyed myself rather than hyperventilating like I have in the past. 
Hope you're all having a fab 4th! I'm home with the pups while John went to Maine for a family function that he didn't want to miss... I didn't want to uproot her since her spay was a lot more complicated than is normal.
Huh, apparently I'm ok with making sacrifices too! See, fostering's teaching me something!
Re: Well, that was an emotional roller coaster.
Ah, the ups and downs of family planning... it's a good time, isn't it? I remember when we were getting down to the wire and we planned to start trying in September. I did some last minute calculations and came to the decision that Sept was potentially too soon to start if baby came early as it would screw up his finals. Man, did we both breathe a huge sigh of relief for the one month stay of execution! We just needed that one more month to really wrap our heads around what we were getting ready to do. Good thing to- it happened on the first try in October!
Don't worry though, when the time comes, sure you'll have a flood of emotions, but in the end it will all be excitement and happiness and I know you'll be more than amazing!
I'm right there with you on the emotional roller coast. Once DH told me he was ready (even though we aren't trying yet), I couldn't sleep for a week thinking about everything from "what if we take a long time" to "what if it happens right away" to "I wonder what we'd name it" to "I wonder if I can convince DH to do CDs" etc. etc.
It stinkin' sucked!
I've calmed down a lot since then and am learning to go with the flow as best as I can and let whatever happens happen. But I still have moments of doubt even though I know we'll be great parents and that will happen if it is in the cards for us.
Like Kristen, I was super nervous and that first month almost a sigh of relief when it was negative. But then after that, I remember feeling super ready. Then the more negatives I got the more ready I seemed to be! Funny how much when you can't have something you want it more and more.
Second round, lets just say it was a surprise.