*Nicole*

kelnyc

I saw some talk on ML that you've been having a hard time and wanted to check in and say that I hope you are ok.

*smooches*

nicoleabrock

I am having a terrible time adjusting to having my daughter.  I feel awful just saying that.  I am in tears daily because I am so insecure about how I am doing as a mother.  My daughter cries a lot and always has, as a result it is hard not to think you are doing a bad job when you can't keep your child happy.  I have been struggling for months, have tried two therapists, multiple medications, to no avail.

My doctor finally referred me to the psychiatric department today and they told me my first appointment would be on Aug 11th.  That is not going to work.  So they said they would have someone on call contact me today. 

I can't live on survival mode anymore.  I'm just in such a dark place.

ML is awesome but I am so sensitive these days that it's probably better that I take a break until I can regain my strength. 

Milliechel67

I wish I was closer to come give you a BIG HUG!  You can do this Nicole!!!  One of my best friends has struggled BIG TIME in a similar way with each of her children but she's worked hard (with counselors, friends & family) after each and has now had three pregnancies (and four beautiful babies).  Don't give up!! 

Witchys_Woman

Nicole, hang in there. It's tough, I can only imagine as I don't have children, but I can feel for you based on experiences friends of mine have had. If it makes you feel any better at all they have leaned on any available resources, family, friends, public health. They are all wonderful outlets and they are wonderful hard working parents who want the best for their children. The fact that you are willing to use those things to tell the story that you are trying and working toeards making everyone as happy and healthy as possible.

Muffin'sMom

Know that there are people who love you, care and want to be there for you.  It's hard not to feel alone, and hard not to feel like you are the only one.  I promise you, you are NOT alone.  I was there, and I made it through the other side.  My daughter isn't perfect, but I didn't damage her beyond repair    

kellieandjason

Nicole, I know exactly how you feel. I went through it after I had Jaiden. It took me a couple months and the right meds for me to snap out of it. I hope you get better soon.

kelnyc

I'm sorry things seem so bleak right now, and although I haven't been in your exact situation, I have hit bottom before. You are doing everything right, including seeking out the help you need. Things will not always be this way, so be sure to remind yourself of that. You will get out of this and feel good again. Your daughter loves you and you are a good mother. I really believe that, and I'm just an internet stranger! I know it's true because I know you are a good person. If there is anything I can do, seriously, please let me know.

xoxoxox 

juangela

Oh Nicole...I really wish we didn't live on opposite coasts right now. Being a mom is the most stressful job I have ever had. Nothing has made me doubt myself more! I'm so, so proud of you for reaching out to those around you and getting the help that you need to work through the emotions you are feeling.

I have 100% confidence that you are a wonderful mother and that your little girl loves you with all of her heart. I know that is much easier for me to say than for you to feel. Please don't hesitate to message me if you need to talk.

Cipolla2Be

I am just now seeing this....   Oh friend, I miss you and I am so sorry you are feeling this way.  I know you are a WONDERFUL mother and you are doing the best that you can.  It's take a strong person to reach out for help.  I'm sending you a huge hug and I will also be emailing you at work first thing tomorrow morning.  I heart you and you will get through this!  You are SO strong and such an amazing wife, mother, and person. 

nicoleabrock

I can't thank you guys enough for being so caring and supportive.  I am getting help and know I can get through this.

You are all so awesome.