A pointless yet true note ...(the start of my trend)

MattNCarol

K1, USCIS, Vermont, NOA1, NOA2, NVC, Case Number, DOS, DHL, Consulate, Interview, Visa, POE, forms, medical, police certificates, documents, affidavit of support, forms again, passport, AOS, marriage license, WV, RJ, USA, Brazil.... and all I wanted was to simply marry Matt... Do you think it's easy? You need courage to deal with this for MONTHS, to deal with the unknown, to deal with pain and distance. Most of people I know would NEVER go through this because they are weak, afraid of the new and changes. I'm proud to say that we're getting to an end, finally, and stronger than ever. And I never got into this process thinking about ''the american dream'', in fact, this was never my dream and it still not, I live for the brazilian dream if you ask me. The only thing I want from U.S is being able to be with my man, and unfortunatelly to do that, we need a visa. Paperwork, paper paper paper, stress, pain, distance, love, faith, hope, God, us. Wouldn't you go crazy aswell? Wouldn't you hate all of those words if you had to deal with it for months? I know, it sucks. But trust me, if you know what you have, who is waiting for you, and why you are waiting for it... then you'll be fine, I'm fine. Many others survived. I don't even know why this turned into a note, and you probably don't want to read this, I didn't even want to type it, so I'm not blaming you, ok? Good, because since you read it all.. I guess now you can understand that I'm doing this for who I love. He is the only reason I'm fighting my patience, fighting all the odds, to be with him, to be his wife. And you could ask me, ''but why not Brazil?''...And then I'd get pissed off, at first - because I personally don't like answering this over and over again - but I would reply... ''Why not U.S? What are his options here and what are mine there?'' ... Do you get what I mean? Probably not, but I explain... I speak english (I try), I can easily adjust to people, to winter, to citizens, I will be able to work faster because I don't need to learn from the start the language, I gotta improve it, and so on. But now tell me what are his options here? Does he speak portuguese? NO, so that means no job, which eventually means no money. Not speaking the language, would he adjust easily to the place, people, enviroment? No.  I can seriously keep typing all the reasons I see that here isn't an option, for now at least, and why we started this process, but would this make you understand? I guess not, but I don't give a *** either, because no one knows neither understands who we are, how we love each other, and our rational thoughts. And I can tell you, quit trying to find explanations for ''why are we going through this process'', because buddy, I tell you what, you won't get it. It is NOT an american dream, it is NOT a greencard stuff, it is NOT what you think it is, but IT IS love, and some people just can't see why love would move mountains, move seas, move the universe. I.CAN.  One question to you now, do you know what's love? or do you CLAIM to know what it is? Are you truly in love with the person that you are committed to? Does it takes your breath away when you think about this person? Does it makes your heart beats fast, even if you're with this person for years? Is this person the best thing in your life? Do you pray for this person at night? Would you feel lost if this person ever left you? Ok, wasn't obviously one question.. but are you getting to my point here? I hope so, because it'd be pointless to keep typing it all, actually it is pointless to type it all, I won't teach you how to love, or to be loved. You figure that on your own, but think about what I asked, and honestly ask yourself, you'll find the right answers.  Oh, you can think.. ''but she's so young, doesn't know anything about life, love, marriage, etc.. '', well I don't play this card here, because how the world spins nowadays, age doesn't mean knowledge, neither that you're mature enough and knows everything about those subjects. I asked myself many times, for several years, if I was in the place I was supposed to be, or wanted to be... and I never found an answer, but mind you, I know now this answer, and well, this can explain why I'm going through the K1 visa, because home, where I'm supposed to be, is with the one I love, home is where he is, and is where I want to be now. Clich?, right? But so honest, that you can't even imagine it.  Anyway, I'll end this here, he's waiting for me on msn and I'm here typing this pointless note that was supposed to be a status update. If you read it all, good for you, would you stop and think about what I typed here, yes? Review your priorities, review yourself before you even want to comment here (unless you're my man, who is allowed to do anything here), but if you are not... I really don't care for your opinion, because it won't change what I typed here, or what I think, what I love, what I believe, what I do, so.. either way, if you want to comment, like, dislike.. up to you.  Sincerely,Carolina.  P.S: I love you Matt, thanks for waiting, I'm back to msn     ----------------------------------------------------This is the note that started my new trend, I'm loving writting and I apologize if you find any grammar error, or spelling. Next time it'll get better, I'm learning more and more about english and I know it'll be very good in the future. This wasn't supposed to be a note, neither the start of anything, it was something I felt like I was keeping inside and when I had the chance to let it out, I did. Result was the note, hope you can understand what I mean when you read it, hope you do not judge, and hope you like it.  I'm sharing it here, since on my previous topic a lady asked me to share with you all and I believe here it's the right place.  Thanks ladies for reading it. I appreciate.