.... the one time in YEARS I have desperately felt the need to talk to a friend, no ONE is answering their phones. Not my mom, sis, none of my 3 BFFs. /sigh
I really dropped the ball today. I made the decision a few weeks ago to seek treatment for my depression. I had an appt w/ a psychatrist today, over an hour away. C made arrangements to go into work late so I could leave baby S with him, since no one else we know was willing to take him for the evening. No biggie, right?
That is until I totally mess up, lose track of time in my appointment and let it run 2 HOURS over. To top it off, I didn't hear my phone ringing in my purse, so I missed like 10 calls from C who was freaking out because I was so late. (Combination of worry that I'd wrecked somewhere and anger at a lack of communication and him needing to get to work).
Needless to say, I feel like the worst mom and wife ever, and no one in my life is around. That does not help my depression at all....lol.
UPSIDE: (b/c there is almost always an upside) I really like my new psychiatrist, I think she is really going to make a huge difference in my treatment, and I am proud of myself for taking the time to do the hard and scary thing of taking care of myself so I can be a better wife and mommy....even if I did flub that part tonight.
Re: It figures....
I totally agree. Do not beat yourself up over this. I know it is easier said than done but you were seeking help for yourself.
I also know the feeling about wanting to talk but not being able to reach anyone on the phone that is the worst ever!
All of this. And think about it this way. Your a wonderful wife and mommy because your doing what you can to get yourself better so you can take better care of everyone including yourself. Huge hugs honey.
Thanks ladies. Now that the crisis is over and we've all had some sleep, I've been able to put it into perspective. It was a bad situation, yes, but we all lived and its not the end of the world. Important parenting lessons were learned all around...lol.
I think the scheduling was part of my frustration/overload. When I made the appointment 5 weeks ago, C was supposed to be off by the time I left and there wasn't going to be a conflict. He got switched to nights this week on short notice, and her next opening was another 2-3 weeks away.
Thankfully now that the initial eval is over the Dr said I can bring baby S with me for future appointments. I didn't want to do that this time b/c I was worried he'd have to spend the whole time in his carseat, but now I know her office is comfy and clean enough that S can play on a blanket on the floor while we are there.
You had an appt with a psychiatrist, showed up on time, were seen on time, and met with the psychiatrist for two hours longer than scheduled (so maybe 3hr total)?!? If that is accurate, that means the psychiatrist LET you run two hours over, which is not professional. Even if you were the last appt of the day, that psychiatrist is not setting proper boundaries for your visits. I'm glad to hear you liked the psychiatrist, but I would be watchful for other boundary violations.
Bottom line, it is the psychiatrist's job, not yours, to be mindful of the time and bring your appt to its scheduled conclusion. Totally not your fault!