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Random Grumbles..Have any?
I have been pretty down these last couple of days. There's alot going on, and I just feel pretty tired of people's nonsense.
Random grumbles of mine. *Please join in if you have any!!
1. I feel so stuck with DH's family now. I know I *HAVE* to invite them to functions now, and Im really pissed about it. His sister out of the blue texted me last night (wtf? how did she get my #?) to tell me congratulations on having the baby. Um, its TWO months later you animal! LOL. DH looks at me and says "I dont understand why she would call you instead of me..how did she get your number?" I just dont want any more drama its always something.
2. I have been stalling on taking a math exam for school (mandatory) to assess my skills and place me in the correct class. I SUCK at Math, to the point that it causes me major anxiety. Like the panic attack/cant breathe kind. School starts on 9/7, I still havent taken it and I need a math class this semester. Im panicking that I stalled so long, and just beating myself up about it. I might have a 4.0 average, but when it comes to Math, I just break down.
3. I REALLY miss my mother. She was my best friend. Feeling really lonely.
4. I REALLY need to lose this baby weight. Im feeling super depressed.
If you made it this far, well..thanks.
Grumbles anyone?
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and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
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Re: Random Grumbles..Have any?
Hmm let me see...not really grumbles but here we go...
Alisha - I wanted to add that I am sorry about your mom. I cannot even imagine my mom not being here without bursting into tears. ((Hugs))
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Alisha, I am sorry about your mom
I have a grumble! I am sick of my health! I feel tired all the time and I have been having some issues with side effects from taking the pill, plus I have another personal problem that might require surgery if it doesn't go away. I am experiencing so much hair loss, which could be caused by the pill, so I am thinking of going off it, but if I go off it, then my acne will come back, and have to figure out if there's a medication I can take that won't cause more side effects
So now I've made some dr appointments and I hope it gets sorted out 
I can definitely join in.
1. We went to visit my family where there was so much family and friends for Genevieve and me. We returned to NY and it was back to just DH and me. It's getting harder and harder to be here without my friends and family. I think if I didn't get married I would've moved back by now. DH has his own business here that he worked so hard to make.
2. I go back to work on Tues. Just when I feel like we've really got this whole mother-baby thing down. I think I'll still have a lot of time with her, because I get done at 3:00. I am worried about balancing work and her though. I have a new job that involves a lot of paperwork, which is kind of good. I can work on the laptop while DD is next to me on the bed. DH can be very helpful at times and other times very not. We've discussed that my job is just as important. Bringing me back to #1 that it would be easier with family around.
3. I'm with Alisha on that family is family and is always family. I have a similar situation with DH's other DD (or maybe DD, lots of drama). I wanted him to get this sorted out before our wedding. He goes back and forth with having a relationship with her. One month we're not talking with her and another month he's bringing her over to my DD's godparents house. It's so confusing. I was raised that you maintain consistent relationships with family. You don't just stop talking to them. It may be difficult at times, but you still think about them, care about them and return their phone calls. I just don't know where I stand in all of this. The bottom line is I don't want my DD to be confused and part of this drama. I really would like him to get a blood test as he's only pretty sure on this. A never ending argument.
Thanks for the venting. I don't like to complain, but sometimes it just gets to be too much.
Alisha, sorry about your mom. It's hard not having a grandma for your baby.
Ha! I love how straight forward he is. Kind of funny. Do you have plans for the way you're going to tell everyone?!
Re: my mom..thanks. Its horrible. And its been 8 years, and not any better..
@adozenroses: Im so sorry to hear about your health issues. For about 6 years, I had developed problems and it really made me so frustrated and depressed..I totally get it. I hope you do get it sorted out!
@musicscout: Going back to work will totally be difficult, but kudos to you for gettinerdone!! You can totally do it (I have my virtual pom poms out for you!) and I hope your DH pitches in to help you balance it all. Im nervous about being back in school FT...just wanting to be able to balance it all, do well at all of it. *sigh*
With regards to his DD/Not-DD, girl, I dont know how you do it. I would be pushing/fighting him to get tested and resolved, better for everyone involved...hang in there!
I am so glad that we all vented some. Sometimes, it just feels good to say it outloud and unload it, you know??