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Please tell me not to worry.
I guess being home sick today has left me with too much time to think. Dh and I had our first RE appointment last week. Things went pretty well. She referred me to get a HSG done. I had it yesterday and everything is all well with my female parts. So, this is good news. I am not sure when I will be starting the hormone shots.. but now that the HSG is out of the way and there are no problems, it could be soon.
Well, that is not what I am worried about. All this talk of getting pg again made me think of the first time I got pg. How happy I was and how sad I was when it was taken away from me. I know that I was blessed with my little guy shorty after. but it is a still a fear that I can't shake. I dont want to go through that again, but there is a part of me that tells me that I might just have to. A miscarriage is a huge possibility with PCOS. Is it irrational for me to worry like this?
I dont know if any of this makes sense. And I am sorry for the babble. But I just needed to get it out.
Re: Please tell me not to worry.
I know it is hard and it is totally normal to worry. But as you know.....it is not in our hands. Losing a baby is the hardest thing EVER! When I had all that drama with Katie at the begining after the m/c, I was totally freaking out and I ended up being OK (well....after the progesterone and baby aspirin until 35 weeks.
XOXOXO hang in there...it WILL be OK....
Marina, thanks for babbling! It's a good thing to get if off your chest, and I'm sorry you are going through this. (((Hugs)))
I try to take it one day at a time. If I start thinking about anything other than this day I make myself nutso and the IF thoughts consume me. You are such a strong woman to have dealt with all of this before. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Give Jacob some extra hugs for me, and feel free to vent away. Sending happy, healthy baby dust your way...
It's not irrational at all. You lost your baby, a baby that you fell in love with the very moment you got your positive pregnancy and that's a terrible terrible thing to go through.
Having had two losses before I got pregnant with Ella it weighed on my mind every day. Then I had excessive bleeding the entire first trimester with Ella so I spent most of this time crying or obsessing about what I could do...I wanted to be happy, I did...but in the back of my mind I was scared. Even H was scared. At my first appointment with Ella we had a back up for our son. We figured if I needed another d&c, at least we'd have a sitter.
There is no way to shake the experience of loss or the experience of a m/c...but just remember you have many of us on this board who can relate to your experience and are hear to listen when you want to babble:)
Hang in there Marina!
Lots of hugs and prayers for you. I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you. Good luck. And remember you can babble on here as much as you want.
it's not at all irrational! pregnancy is a huge blessing --but it's a huge challenge as well... the toll it takes on your body and your emotions is great and it's absolutely normal to run the gamut of emotions when trying to get pg again.
we're all here for you to vent to!
It is OK to worry. ?I will probably worry the whole time during my next pregnancy as I did with Jacob's pregnancy. ?I had a m/c before Jacob, and had an anxiety attack every time I had a Dr appt.
Just know that we are here for you no matter what happens.?
You have all rights to be concerned, but like I tell everybody claim it now and it's yours. Just remember that God holds all lives in his hands and it is all ready done. I'm praying for you, because I'm a witness prayer truly works.
I, too, know where you're coming from. I had a m/c before getting pg with the boys. Then at 18 weeks I was put on strict bedrest and told there was a big possibility we might lose the boys too. I spent two months at home and another two months on hospital bedrest worrying every day that they would die or be born way too early.
The fear of losing a pregnancy, especially when you've already experienced a loss, can be really overwhelming. I hope that as you move forward you can find a way to quiet those fears so that they don't take the joy out of your future pregnancies. This is a positive direction you and your husband are going in.
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