Today is my Birthday. I was really nervous/sad about it. But my friends and coworkers made me feel so loved that I hardly felt the absence of a DH. I am so incredibly lucky to have so many awesome people in my life even if my life is not how I want it to be. I recognize life is a process and sometimes your life is just not at its peak but maybe it's where it should be anyway.
It's still so incredibly hard and I am still lost most of the time but today everything seems okay and good. I wish this sense of confidence could last.
I just wanted to share happy news versus totally breaking down news as my posts usually go...haha.
I remember how last year, my DH worked on his laptop during my surprise happy hour my friend planned. It's funny because now he says I am a workaholic and that is the problem (no on seems to agree with this). I guess I am starting to realize that it's always been my friends who make me so darn happy but if it matters, I really wanted it to be my DH who did. I see him trying so hard now, I see him wanting to be perfect for me, I see him doing all the right things but I just can't seem to get on board. I love him so much it hurts and it breaks my heart to think of him alone and yet I cannot seem to give in.
Anyway, hope you all are having a fabulous day.
Re: Today!
They see us rollin'...they be hatin'.