I usually LOVE the holidays. I can't wait to decorate, give gifts and listen to all the cheesy Christmas music. This year, it just isn't happening. Gift giving and buying is stressing me out. I haven't even ordered holiday cards (also one of my favorite things this time of year). Put up the tree and decorations over the weekend but still not feeling it.
It has been a stressful 2011. Having a new house is great but obviously the selling and buying process was no picnic. There are still great concerns around my little brother's future. Losing our dog Logan still makes me want to cry almost daily. And to top it all off I am so far from mother of the year, and really just not enjoying being home with my girls right now. I hate feeling that way because obviously I love them so much! I'd love to find balance with part time work but it turns out the opportunity I was just offered isn't going to work.
I guess I am mostly venting so thanks for reading. I hope my mom visiting through the holidays will help. I know DH and I could really use some alone time so having a built in sitter will hopefully allow us to get out some too.

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Hugs!
I feel the same way this year. Usually Christmas is my favorite thing in the world, but this has been such an incredibly hard year for us in so many ways, and it's just stressing me out to feel pressure to be cheery.
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Hugs and commiseration. I feel exactly the same way and have experienced many of the same situations as you this year. It's very stressful. Sorry I'm not still there or we could plan a MNO.
I'm sorry the new position won't work out. It sounded great.
This used to be my favorite part of the year, but as we get older and the kids get older, there are more and more obligations during this time of year and it's just stressful, which takes all the fun out of it all.
This year I'm only doing what I feel like doing- so we put up the tree and the stockings, but the rest of the decorations are staying packed away. It's just too much work and no really worth it.
I'm trying to keep everything else as simple as possible, which isn't always easy, but you have to keep your sanity, you know?
Big hugs.
Oops sorry I just read the rest of your post. I bet your mom being here will help a lot. You do need time away with your husband. We bought a house last year and I felt the same way last Christmas. Sometimes it could be you don't feel at home in your house yet. Hugs!
I have more than enough holiday cheer to lend you! Watching Micah sing "We wiss you a merry chrissmas" over and over as soon as the tree entered the house and running around turning off all the lights so we can "see da pretty chrissmas tree" when I put the lights on last night really made my holiday already. He is so excited about all things Christmas that it makes me happy.
I haven't really shopped much for anyone but the boys yet, but I've decided that local and smaller is better than free shipping and big deals this year.
I'm planning to also save all my stress for when my family is all in town. It will come and maybe you and I should Skype as we try to figure out some cards this week...I too am later than usual with those.
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