I sure miss my little guy and it was my first whole weekend without him. I spent the whole weekend reorganizing and cleaning our home. I was sharing a room with DS while his father was in the other room. I made DS's room as best I can to be cute and child friendly for him. STBXH moved out 2 weeks ago (he decided he wanted to divorce on July 4th). I just slept in the new bedroom for 2 nights and it definitely drawn out new emotions for me. DS is definitely reacting to stbxh not being here anymore. Sometimes I feel like he rather be with someone else other than me. This is definitely hard and very emotional.
It's been 7 months since we separated and the whole time, stbxh had rejected me in every way until tonight. He cried in front of me for the first time saying he misses our family and he feels like a failure every time he sees ds. He says this is much harder than he thought it would be and mentioned that he will "fix" our family.
Tomorrow I have an appointment at the court house to go over divorce response papers and file child support. stbxh did not know this and I didn't tell him.
I am confused emotionally but me mentally I know what I need to do. I totally am in shocked with what happened tonight. I didn't think out of millions of chances that this would happen.