I met with my therapist on Saturday morning, and she basically said out loud that it's time to put an end to the toxic cycle that I'm in with my H. That if I ever decide to move back in with him that the cycle of abuse will continue, eventually. These are the thoughts that I've been thinking to myself since I've moved out in mid-December.
Since I'm living in a friends house that is on the market to be sold, I haven't switched my mail over yet and meet with H about once a week to grab my mail. Therapist suggested I open a PO Box until I move into a more permanent residence. I did that this morning and then I broke down in tears, I couldn't breathe, I started shaking, sweating and my boss almost called an ambulance. It was a pretty scary moment. I feel fine now but this happened over opening a PO Box and here I throught I was holding it together pretty well. blah. Happy Monday!
Re: Panic attack...I just had one!
Hugs to you. It sounds like your definetly going through a lot at the moment. But you seem to be taking steps in a healthy direction and having a therapist certainly helps.
Technically I don't think you had a panic attack over the PO Box itself, it was likely more of a build up and spill over about EVERYTHING that has been happening with you lately. It's natural, I had many during my separation and divorce. Make sure you are taking care of yourself. And again hugs to you!
I'm glad you're seeing your therapist and taking steps toward isolating yourself from him. He is toxic and will continue to be. Can you talk to her about coping mechanisms or maybe a pill to take when you're paralyzed like that?
I had panic attacks over my divorce because I was so scared of XH. There were times that I couldn't even function and would just go home, take an anti anxiety pill and try to calm down for a few hours. The good news is the attacks will stop. ((hugs))
Mint, I'm already on Celexa for coping with my anxiety. I sent my therapist an email to see what she suggest I do in case this every happens again.
I am by no means a doctor, so I don't know if this is an option or not with your current meds, but my doctor gave me beta blockers for my anxiety issues. They weren't extreme enough to need daily meds, so this was something that I could take on an as-needed basis, and it would just help with the physical symptoms of the anxiety (racing heart, shortness of breath, sweating, etc). It might be worth asking about as an "immediate" help when you have these attacks. Best of luck to you...I am totally worthless when one hits me, so I totally understand.
Great! Also I thought celexa was more of an anti depressant than anti anxiety. My doc gave me a benzodiazepine for my attacks on an as needed basis.