On Friday DH and I made the decision to put our dog down. His health was declining fast and it was horrible to see him so helpless and no doubt in pain. Even though I know it was the right thing to do, it was still the hardest decision I have ever had to make.
DH's family adopted him when he was just over a year old and when DH and I moved in together he came too; he was our first baby. He has been with us for all of life's big events and was a big part of our family. It's not lost on me that we were so lucky to have all of that time with him, or that 17 human years is a lot of life for a dog, but it doesn't make it any easier to walk into the house and not see him there.
When I was only a few months old, my family had to put down our dog and my parents decided they would never get another dog again. I always thought that was so unfair and swore that I wouldn't do the same thing to my kids. In the moment, having a dog was more awesome than I ever expected... but now I understand. I don't want to go through this heartache again, and whoa, I can't imaging having to watch DS deal with this. Our poor cat has been either wandering around meowing at random or sitting right on top of us. I wasn't prepared for how empty the house would feel.
I'm not sure there was too much of a point to this post other than to say I'm sad, I miss my dog, and this sucks. Hug your doggies a little extra for me, please.
Re: Sad :( re: my dog
Oh this made me cry. I can't imagine how tough that must have been. I am so sorry for your loss.
As one who also considers my dog my first baby, I worry about this with my future children. They are still going to be young when my dog gets close to that time and I am going to be such a wreck. I can't imagine how hard it will be on them.
I am REALLY sorry Danielle! I am starting to think about this more and more as Trouble gets older. He's blind and cranky now and I have no doubt that his health is going to become an issue at some point soon. He will be 12 this year. I watched my sister make this same decision a few months ago and I know how hard it can be. Knowing you did the right thing doesn't make the loss any less painful.
We are are all thinking about you! HUGS!
I'm very sorry for your loss.
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