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Divorce is Final
So yesterday, my divorce became official and legal. We have been completely separated for a year so nothing really changed. We already had a property agreement in place that became the final divorce decree. There are no pending items. We were in agreement on everything so no drama. It feels like it happened so fast and there was a part of me that wanted to be like, "Wait, hold on!"
I didn't really have any emotions yesterday about it. I didn't even tell anyone except two friends. They wanted to celebrate but I don't want to. Even though I know it was the right decision and the best thing for both of us...I still think it's sad.
It's weird to think that this person I shared a whole life with is now not a part of it at all, nothing ties us together now. I guess I am also annoyed/sad that we never talked about any of it. He wanted the divorce and that was that. He never wanted to talk about any of it or how he felt or how he is doing now or what went wrong. There was no closure, no goodbye, no last thoughts or feelings, no reminiscing, no dissection of what happened. Nothing. We literally never talked about his decision for divorce. I know there was a lot that went wrong and we hurt each other, but there were really good, perfect day and lots of love and I guess I just wish he would acknowledge that we shared a life and had a life...but it's like he just wants to forget everything and pretend it never happened. I guess that is easier because the hardest part for me is the good memories, they hurt. But I don't think it's healthy to just forget it all.
I feel like I was erased from his life, heart, mind. It's weird.
Okay, I just had to get these random thoughts/feelings out. It is what it is and I know I will be okay. I have already rebuilt so much of my life in one year and now I just want to focus on forgiving myself for the role I played in the end of the marriage and just keep learning from it and hopefully be better for my next relationship (which does not need to come anytime soon).
Re: Divorce is Final
Men usually don't express their emotions like women so I wouldn't take anything personally from your ex.
It is more important to focus on what YOU feel. It sounds like you are on a better path for yourself.
Onwards and Upwards!
I know the feeling. I find it strange that this person I was so close to as in sharing the same bed and all is now just a complete stranger.
I agree with the person who said men don't process emotions the same way. They tend to hide them. Focus on yourself and it will be alright. Someday, all those questions won't matter anymore.