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It's not fair that H can't be home on paternity leave while I go to work
instead of the other way around. I am resenting him right now because he is out trail running with friends after a day of normal work life. Meanwhile, I am about to slit my wrists because Joanna has not slept more than 30 minutes in a stretch all day, nor did she during my shift last night. I am exhausted and tired of being glued to the baby. When H was home at lunch, he was like "I wish I could switch with you." Yeah, ME TOO. This is mean, but I'm kind of disappointed the beach trip isn't on the weekend so he could see what it was really like to be on baby duty all day.
On the plus side, this is the first day I've felt really sleep deprived, which I guess is a good thing considering I've had a newborn for 3 weeks. Being sleep deprived makes me cah-razy. I fear what it will be like when we are both back at work.
I'm drinking a glass of wine and then will probably pass out when H gets home.
In other boring baby news, I've decided to start decreasing my milk supply and be content with what I already have frozen instead of making myself miserable pumping 50 oz a day out of these giantfuccking knockers. I'll still have enough to feed her. As I mentioned in the randoms thread, my tits get so big and swoll between pumping, especially the left one. It's uncomfortable, and it's not worth it. I look forward to the day I can actually enjoy sleeping more than 4 hours in a row.
Re: It's not fair that H can't be home on paternity leave while I go to work
Hang in there Mama - it will get easier.
I feel for you about the BFing - I had the same issue. My boobs were so huge I had to hold them so I could move around in bed - I tried wearing a nursing bra 24/7, but that made me even more miserable.
Is there anyone in your family or a friend nearby that can come and help you out during the day, just long enough for you to get a decent nap, or even a shower? I would volunteer if I was in Florida. I have been there.
Fifty ounces? Ho lee chit
I hereby christen you
Tambcow
I think it's completely reasonable to feel annoyed or resentful.
As much as I love SAH, on my shitty days I am definitely resentful of H being able to leave to go to work in the morning while the house is falling apart around us, and I'm stuck there dealing with kids and house stuff.
My husband is always asking me "Is it okay if I ____ after work?"
"Sure have fun!"
Then the day comes and it is "Sonofbiitch, why are you leaving me with these monsters!!!"
oh, i fully relate to everything you are saying! H travelled about 3-4 times in the first 6 months and i used to HATE it. it was hard. having said that, it's even harder now that my baby doesn't sleep all day and i have to feed him real food and entertain him. oh, how i miss those first few months. /tangent over.
anyway, perhaps this can be a lesson to you that for the next while, you will just need him to be home right after work barring any unusual circumstances. even though she sleeps all the time (in theory, lol), it is still a tough job and it really helps to have him home to give you a break.
when are you going back to work? at the 6 week mark? or 8 week mark?
you are doing a great job tambo. this is all normal!
1. it is totally normal to hate your husband right now
2. he needs to realize he doesn't get to have a social life right now
3. all of this is TOTALLY NORMAL
4. I love you and think you are doing great!
LD- thanks.
Angelaa - I know, it's ridiculous. I've created an oversupply in myself through a combination of ignorance, guilt, and fascination with the whole process. lol
tamb, everyone has said it all. you are doing a great job and everything you are feeling is totally normal.
when your h gets home, shower and go out for ice cream.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! LMFAO!!
It SHOULD be easy. But it's hard as hell.Hardest damn thing I've done in my life, EVER, is take care of a newborn. I seriously hate the newborn phase. Give me a toddler, a preschooler, a preteen...whatever. Newborns suck.
But it does get much, much, much better. So, hang in there.
I'm sorry it's tough right now. I would be frustrated, too -- I am a psycho sans sleep.
Thinking of you, hoping you get a break/good sleep soon.
Exactly what lovedan said.
Next time, even if you think you can manage and that he can go, just say no. Always say no for a few more weeks, lol.
In the meantime, have a drink and come here for a hug.
((((tamb))))
Because babies are a time suck! LOL
I'd be annoyed too. Babies are difficult. I'm trying to convince my daughter to let us keep one of the grandkiddos but me & DH can only manage one kid at a time. I think having a 2.5 y/o and an 11 mo old might actually kill us.
You're sleep deprived and being with a baby all day long is mentally exhausting. It is hard, and anyone who would say it should be easy probably hasn't done it!
I think it's reasonable to be annoyed but like Floyd said, it's a tit for tat thing. G was born right in the middle of ski season and my H spent a lot of time at the ski hill but I took time for myself, even if it was just a bath, whenever I wanted to without apology. I feel like your H would have stayed home if you'd asked him to so don't hesitate to do that when you need to.