For the last few months I have been tired, dizzy and just overall feeling off, and my stomach has been hurting the past couple days. I'm starting to think it's related to the anxiety I've been having more off lately due to my job. I love the idea of my job, I help cancer patients with any assistance they need (transportation, education, etc), but I've been feeling very bored lately. I feel as though I have become too productive for my job with no room at the moment to grow. I doubt there will be any growth in my job position for a few years, and frankly I'm tired of sitting on my butt all day in front of a computer. I really want to get a job with children. I have enough education to be a preschool teacher. The problem is that it doesn't pay as well as my current job, by about $2-3/hr depending on where I would work. So to compensate for that, I figured I would pick up tutoring also for afterwards. I really want to start getting teaching experience, since I would like to make a career out of it after I am done with school. The problem is that I am scared to change, even though my job is irritating me like crazy.
The other part of this is that my H may be losing his job...He works for his dad, who owns a electrical business, and they have been struggling A LOT lately. They haven't been able to pay benefits to their employees for 4 months because the contractor that runs the jobs they are on won't pay them, because they are also not being paid, etc. So my H is starting to look for other jobs. The problem for him also is that he makes good money where he is at, and finding another job with the same pay, or close to it, is going to be difficult.The economy sucks here in California, like everywhere else in the country.
So I feel selfish for even thinking of finding a new job, even though it's starting to seriously impact my health due to the stress...I just needed to vent and maybe get some positive encouragement or advice. TIA
Re: Well here comes the stress...
I don't think it's selfish at all for you to want a new job, I think it's fine for you to start looking for one. But obviously you will want to make sure you have one lined up that pays half way decent before you quit your current one.
As someone who has hated their job for years and currently in school for a career change, I can tell you just the process of moving towards being able to quit has been a huge relief to me, having a light at the end of the tunnel can make even those really terrible days at work just a little better.
Good luck!