Well Saturday was H's birthday, which marked exactly 1 year from when he said "let's just let things happen." We were busy all day long, and said nothing about it to each other. Then yesterday came, and H broke down. He's usually the strong one of the 2 of us, but he said he couldn't hold it in any longer. Then he listed out all of the things we should be at, and made me break down.
1. Our first baby should've been 10 months old at this point.
2. If my cycles would be normal we would now be persuing testing, instead of doing it only a few months in.
3. I should be 23 weeks pregnant right now.
4. He should be touching my belly to feel a baby, not because I've taken my stress out at the gym and ask him if he feels abs.
5. We should be remodeling the spare bedroom into a nursery. Not remodeling it into nothing.
6. We should be choosing nursery colors. Not, what color we can paint to transition to nursery someday, but not hate the room if it never does.
6. He should be able to watch me take care of our friends' 8 month old and be happy, not hurt watching it.
7. He should be falling asleep on the couch with our baby on his chest. Not our friend's son.
So you know what PCOS? F U and the horse you road in on!
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
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Re: The 1 Year Breakdown
~TTC Buddies with akcrrr and amandaf6383~
Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
B Born 6.27.13
B/w 1/8: betas 17,345, progesterone 25.6
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
BFP 2: 7/7/2014 Beta 7/8: 115, Beta 7/12: 638, Beta 7/16: 3793, Beta 7/21: 21,625
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
Thank you girls for all of your support lately. I really appreciate it, and can't even imagine the people who don't have any support system at all going through this. I honestly don't think I would be as strong as I am about this if I didn't know that our struggles are minimal in comparison to others, and our 1 year journey is only a small portion of what it could be.
H on the other hand doesn't have people to talk to about it besides me, and I think it's getting to him.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)

Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
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* After 22 months and 2 failed IUIs, we finally got our BFP *
DS delivered naturally at 41w6d on 4/18/14
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In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
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BFP - 10/29/2016!!!, EDD - 7/8/2017
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TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)

Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
Cycle 8,9,10 - 50mg Clomid - BFN
TTC#2 4/14
A Parachute in an Oak Tree: A World of Love
~ S & L 8-25-12 ~

"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. SeussBaby E born: 2/16/2014 at 12:56pm. 5lb 15oz
TTC #1 since July 2012
Cycles 1-9: BFN
Cycle 10: Surprise BFP on 10/17/2013!
EDD: June 25, 2014
Baby Girl born via induction June 26, 2014
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Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15