Getting Pregnant
poppies717
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It's going to be over soon (lr)
6w 1d and my betas are only 791. They were 400 4 days ago. I go in for an u/s on Monday to see what's there, and we'll probably be looking at either a D&C or the shot (metho...?). I was devastated on Tuesday, so now I'm just numb. I wanted this one, so knowing I can get pregnant gives me no consolation.
And now I'm going to be bitter for a half sec.
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to worry about their beta numbers
FUCK fertile bitches who are so fucking happy from the second they pee on a stick. I was happy for .5 seconds and then anxiety set in
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to worry about not seeing a HB because it never crosses their mind that something would be wrong
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to mourn the loss of a baby they very much wanted
FUCK fertile bitches who don't have to spend thousands of dollars to get pregnant and only end up with tears and a uterus that is holding onto their dead baby.
Fuck 'em.
And now I'm going to be bitter for a half sec.
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to worry about their beta numbers
FUCK fertile bitches who are so fucking happy from the second they pee on a stick. I was happy for .5 seconds and then anxiety set in
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to worry about not seeing a HB because it never crosses their mind that something would be wrong
FUCK fertile bitches who never have to mourn the loss of a baby they very much wanted
FUCK fertile bitches who don't have to spend thousands of dollars to get pregnant and only end up with tears and a uterus that is holding onto their dead baby.
Fuck 'em.
TTC #1 since Feb. '12. dx: "unexplained" IF
After 2 shitty IVF cycles and 1 loss at 6+2 (EDD 11/7/14), DH and I are pursuing DIA.
11/17/2014 - ACTIVE AND WAITING!
Pregnancy was never the end goal; being a mom was.
I've been holding out on GP: I got drunk once and started a blog: Here it is (11/7 update)
3T<3
Re: It's going to be over soon (lr)
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
~TTC Buddies with akcrrr and amandaf6383~
Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
Currently on Metformin and Synthroid
EDD: 6.15.15
...hello out there!
dx with anovulatory PCOS 2005
off bcp 11/11
a few rounds of clomid and femara... no response.
injectables/IUI 12/12... BFN
Feb 13 IVF cycle converted down to IUI due to low follicle response... BFFN
one last IVF attempt April/May 2013: 19 retrieved. 10 fertilized. 2 transferred in a 3dt. 4 frosties... BFP!!
EDD: 1/21/14... Induced early at 36+6. Our LO was born 12/30/13
TTC#1 July 2010 PCOS dx April 2011 DS born: February 21, 2012
TTC#2 June 2013 MMC Sept 2013 (partial molar), CP 02/2014 DS2 born: December 5, 2014
Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
~ S & L 8-25-12 ~
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
08/13: Started TTC - 07/14: PCOS dx
BFP 09/18/15 - Baby S 05/27/16
DX: MFI
Taking a break from being poked and prodded
It isn't fair at all. I'm sorry that I have no words of wisdom, but I really feel like there are none.
You aren't alone. Love to you, poppies. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
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* After 22 months and 2 failed IUIs, we finally got our BFP *
DS delivered naturally at 41w6d on 4/18/14
My Ovulation Chart
TTC#2 4/14
A Parachute in an Oak Tree: A World of Love
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TTC Since January 2011 - We have bad spermBFP - 10/29/2016!!!, EDD - 7/8/2017