I don't even have words. I am so so sorry. FU IF hard.
Me(27) PCOS, Hypothyroidism & Incompetent Cervix DH(29) Azoospermia
4/11- 12/11 Provera, 3 cycles clomid 50mg, all BFN (HSG-all clear)
Dec 2011 DH S/A shows zero count - dx Azoo
TESE 4/13/12 - Sperm found!! 5 viles frozen
IVF ICSI #1- (Lupron protocol) 5R 2F 2dt- 2DP & 4CF - BFFN
IVF ICSI #2- (Antagonist protocol) Started stims 7/26
ER 8/8 11R 9F 3dt - 9BF & 7BF (+HPT 8dp3dt)beta 1-184 beta 2- 1699 TWINS! EDD 5/1/13
12/9 Joshua David and Zoe Faith born too early at 19w4d due to incompetent cervix
LAP Transabdominal Cerclage - 4/15/13 only possibility of carrying my children to term
IVF ICSI #3.2- (Antagonist Protocol) 7/26 start stims (same day, a year later from J & Z's stim start date!) ER - 8/7 19R 9F 3dt of 2 8BF embryos. (+ HPT 7dp3dt) Beta #1- 82.8 Beta #2- 821 Beta 3-7254
9/11/13 - U/S showed 1 baby HR 135bpm! EDD 4/30/14 Colin born via c/s 4/7/14 (36w5d) 6lbs 14oz - 8 days in the NICU TTC #2 - IVF 4 - July 2015 (Antagonist Protocol) 7/10 start stims 15R 8F 5dt of 1E blast grade BA & 1 blast to freeze!! (+hpt 6dp5dt) beta #1-52 beta #2-62 Beta #3-6.5 - CP FET - 9/18/15 (+hpt 5dp5dt) beta #1 -225.1 beta #2-2468 beta #3-21,352 10/29 - U/S shows 1 bean! HR 151 EDD 6/7/16 It's a BOY! 5/18/16 Jacob born via c/s (37w 1d) 9lbs .8oz 19in - 6 days in the NICU
Oh Xan, I am so sorry. This is so fucking unfair. My heart hurts for you right now. Thinking of you and Jason, and keeping you both in my prayers. If you need to talk, you know where to find me. Lots of love. XO
Cheering on all of my 3T ladies! DX with PCOS - 11/2012 DH S/A & HSG - Normal - Too many rounds of Clomid = BFNs - New RE 5/2014 - Repeat Testing - Losing 40lbs before injects/IUI
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
Thank you all for your love and support. I really appreciate it. Right now I'm just letting myself be sad and feel defeated. Maybe after I hear from the doctor at the end of this week I'll regain some hope but right now stuff just sucks.
TTC since March 2012 w/irregular and anovulatory cycles.
Moved to an RE October 2013 HSG- All clear , S/A- Normal , Bloodwork -Normal
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control" - Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality." - Neil Gaiman
Re: I'm done...
DE IVF ER - 12/2/2016 (17R/10F = 8 frosties); FET 1.0 (1/27/2017) - BFP 6dp5dt (EDD 10/16/2017)
4/11- 12/11 Provera, 3 cycles clomid 50mg, all BFN (HSG-all clear)
Dec 2011 DH S/A shows zero count - dx Azoo
TESE 4/13/12 - Sperm found!! 5 viles frozen
IVF ICSI #1- (Lupron protocol) 5R 2F 2dt- 2DP & 4CF - BFFN
IVF ICSI #2- (Antagonist protocol) Started stims 7/26
ER 8/8 11R 9F 3dt - 9BF & 7BF (+HPT 8dp3dt)beta 1-184 beta 2- 1699 TWINS! EDD 5/1/13
LAP Transabdominal Cerclage - 4/15/13 only possibility of carrying my children to term
IVF ICSI #3.2- (Antagonist Protocol) 7/26 start stims (same day, a year later from J & Z's stim start date!)
ER - 8/7 19R 9F 3dt of 2 8BF embryos. (+ HPT 7dp3dt) Beta #1- 82.8 Beta #2- 821 Beta 3-7254
Colin born via c/s 4/7/14 (36w5d) 6lbs 14oz - 8 days in the NICU
TTC #2 - IVF 4 - July 2015 (Antagonist Protocol) 7/10 start stims
15R 8F 5dt of 1E blast grade BA & 1 blast to freeze!! (+hpt 6dp5dt)
beta #1-52 beta #2-62 Beta #3-6.5 - CP
FET - 9/18/15 (+hpt 5dp5dt) beta #1 -225.1 beta #2-2468 beta #3-21,352
10/29 - U/S shows 1 bean! HR 151 EDD 6/7/16 It's a BOY!
5/18/16 Jacob born via c/s (37w 1d) 9lbs .8oz 19in - 6 days in the NICU
Cycle 8,9,10 - 50mg Clomid - BFN
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"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss08/13: Started TTC - 07/14: PCOS dx
BFP 09/18/15 - Baby S 05/27/16
FET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
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“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control"
- Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality."
- Neil Gaiman
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Baby Boy born 5.3.15