No real update for me. Just waiting for my RE appointment next month.
QOTW: I'm terrible at this type of question. I did find out that I passed my competency today to be a certified Cognitive Behavioral Therapist!!!! Such a relief that I don't have to record my sessions again!
Thanks ladies. It isn't something I bring up, but I'm feeling extra open today. So why not. Last I knew he actually lives a town over from me and he used to be one of our clients in the office. He's seen me a couple of times since I've started working here and made comments on how well I've "filled in" and of how he'd "still tap that." He is no longer a client of ours because of this, and unfortunately my boss had to be filled in as to why I could no longer handle his account when he came in. He has also been in and out of jail multiple times. I just hope that he get ass raped every time he's there.
Holy cow.. that's awful! Was he ever prosecuted for what he did?? I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that not only once, but to have to revisit that memory. (((hugs))) for you, my dear.
This is the part where I hang my head. I didn't know what it was and what was going on (again another reason why I want to bring up sex at a younger age with my children). So I never said anything to my parents or anyone. Still to this day they do not know that it happened, and there were no charges pressed. He was 17 at the time. So he knew better.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles) Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13 1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system. Chemical Pregnancy 03/14 Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15 Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
Update - We've been emailing with an agency that I really like (national pool, refunds if BM backs out, we can say no to anything), but we just got the estimated budget. I nearly choked. It's an entire salary. Holy hell.
QOTW: I have walked across hot coals before.
FX for Looney and our secret keeper!!!!!!
TTC #1 since Feb. '12. dx: "unexplained" IF
After 2 shitty IVF cycles and 1 loss at 6+2 (EDD 11/7/14), DH and I are pursuing DIA.
11/17/2014 - ACTIVE AND WAITING!
Pregnancy was never the end goal; being a mom was.
I've been holding out on GP: I got drunk once and started a blog: Here it is (11/7 update)
You have no reason to hang your head, lady. You were so young. You had no idea what he was doing, that it was wrong, or what should've happened to him. I probably would've done the same thing in your shoes. It's just a sad, sad situation
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
@brij I am so sorry that happened to you and that you had to face him later. Don't feel bad about not saying anything! You didn't know what was going on at the time and that it was wrong, so please don't beat yourself up about it!
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Thanks ladies. It isn't something I bring up, but I'm feeling extra open today. So why not. Last I knew he actually lives a town over from me and he used to be one of our clients in the office. He's seen me a couple of times since I've started working here and made comments on how well I've "filled in" and of how he'd "still tap that." He is no longer a client of ours because of this, and unfortunately my boss had to be filled in as to why I could no longer handle his account when he came in. He has also been in and out of jail multiple times. I just hope that he get ass raped every time he's there.
I am proud of you for not being in jail for straight up murdering his ass. I am sorry.
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
Thanks ladies. It isn't something I bring up, but I'm feeling extra open today. So why not. Last I knew he actually lives a town over from me and he used to be one of our clients in the office. He's seen me a couple of times since I've started working here and made comments on how well I've "filled in" and of how he'd "still tap that." He is no longer a client of ours because of this, and unfortunately my boss had to be filled in as to why I could no longer handle his account when he came in. He has also been in and out of jail multiple times. I just hope that he get ass raped every time he's there.
Holy cow.. that's awful! Was he ever prosecuted for what he did?? I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that not only once, but to have to revisit that memory. (((hugs))) for you, my dear.
This is the part where I hang my head. I didn't know what it was and what was going on (again another reason why I want to bring up sex at a younger age with my children). So I never said anything to my parents or anyone. Still to this day they do not know that it happened, and there were no charges pressed. He was 17 at the time. So he knew better.
Don't ever hang your head. You were just a kid. A baby, practically.
Cheering on all of my 3T ladies! DX with PCOS - 11/2012 DH S/A & HSG - Normal - Too many rounds of Clomid = BFNs - New RE 5/2014 - Repeat Testing - Losing 40lbs before injects/IUI
Thanks ladies. It isn't something I bring up, but I'm feeling extra open today. So why not. Last I knew he actually lives a town over from me and he used to be one of our clients in the office. He's seen me a couple of times since I've started working here and made comments on how well I've "filled in" and of how he'd "still tap that." He is no longer a client of ours because of this, and unfortunately my boss had to be filled in as to why I could no longer handle his account when he came in. He has also been in and out of jail multiple times. I just hope that he get ass raped every time he's there.
I am proud of you for not being in jail for straight up murdering his ass. I am sorry.
There would be no murder. Just slow torture.
ETA: *Disclaimer, I would never murder or torture anyone.
I feel like I need to add that just in case there's someone thinking I would go all Criminal Minds on someone or something.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles) Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13 1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system. Chemical Pregnancy 03/14 Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15 Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
@brij2006 - have you ever talked to a counselor about it? If I might be so bold to suggest it, if not, it might be helpful in figuring how how to deal with all the emotions I'm sure you have from that. That's a pretty heavy thing to grow up with. You wouldn't have to tell family or anyone else if you didn't feel like it, but just for yourself. ((hugs))
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
@rockabye I have actually done some research to find the best one to go to now that my new insurance covers it.
Unfortunately this has been part of why I'm choosing to stop TTC. I've never fully dealt with the emotional baggage that this and my abusive childhood has brought. It's always been something I've handled and moved on from. Then the emotions and heartbreak of 3T and losing 3 children happened, and the panic attacks started back up. Now I feel like it would be irresponsible for me to conceive a child before handling all of these things I've never fully dealt with.
I want to give each and every one of you girls a big huge hug. It means so much to hear others say that I am strong and an inspiration. It truly does keep me from not saying "F it" to the many things I keep fighting for.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles) Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13 1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system. Chemical Pregnancy 03/14 Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15 Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
Aw girl, I think you're making a very wise decision. I know it's not an easy one though. I hope you're able to find a great counselor to talk to and then get back to TTC soon, when you feel like you're in a better place. I'm proud of you for taking a step back and taking care of yourself.
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
@brij2006 good luck with finding a therapist! Just remember you are creating a better future for yourself, your marriage, and your family. You are so strong and brave! Also, we will always be here for you!
I am sorry that I kept you all in the dark for so long....I reallllly wanted to share, but at the time our parents didn't even know. I didn't want to take the risk of a real life "friend" lurking, seeing the news, and then somehow telling my parents before we chose to. They know now, so I don't have to worry about someone squealing:)
I am sorry that I kept you all in the dark for so long....I reallllly wanted to share, but at the time our parents didn't even know. I didn't want to take the risk of a real life "friend" lurking, seeing the news, and then somehow telling my parents before we chose to. They know now, so I don't have to worry about someone squealing:)
I think we can all understand. I obviously shared here on the board, but we didn't tell any family we were doing another transfer. The disappointment factor you mentioned before was huge for us.
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3
TI, 2 IUI = BFN
@Aimothy.... I am so so excited for you! I have everything crossed that you get your BFP at last!
@LooneyLife... Everything is crossed for you, too. Have you done any more POAS?
@Sewilson33... I'm sorry if I missed it in a different post, but does this mean that you have to wait until your next cycle for IUI #1?
@brij2006... I am so so sorry about so many things in your posts. I know that none of us can take away the pain you experienced as a child (and the fact that you still have had to had contact with that disgusting individual) or the pain that IF is causing you currently, but please know you are in my thoughts. You are a beautiful person and deserve great things in your future. I hope counseling helps give you what you need moving forward.
@sweetpotato123... Congrats on the good results! I hope the upcoming lab work helps give you some answers about what might be going on to help you get your sticky baby. GL with your upcoming cycle!
@poppies717... Glad you found an agency you like, and I hope you and they will be able to figure out something for the budget side of things to make it happen.
Update for me: Nada... Still taking tons of meds, shots twice a day, weekly lab draws, etc. to get things in a better place to start with my IVF cycle. I have my next TNF draw 5/5, probably have to wait a week for results, and then if things are better, we may start towards the end of May. Since there was literally no improvement made in the 3-weeks prior with my TNF, I'm not holding my breath...
QOTW: I was married once before to an awful human being, and we had actually tried 2 cycles of IUI, which THANK GOD, were not successful. He had actually threatened to leave me if I wasn't pregnant by the end of the year that I ended up leaving his sorry ass (among may other terrible things that he did/was responsible for).
TTC since 3/2012
DH - 36; nml swimmers; Me - 36; almost no AMH (last 0.081), low AFC, nml FSH/LH
No real update for me. Just waiting for my RE appointment next month.
QOTW: I'm terrible at this type of question. I did find out that I passed my competency today to be a certified Cognitive Behavioral Therapist!!!! Such a relief that I don't have to record my sessions again!
I'm an in home behavioral therapist... Congrats!!!! That's awesome!!!
Ashley & Jeremy 10/10/10
Getting fit for IVF! (add another 20lbs and you have my total weight lost! )
Updates: Ok ladies... where are we at this week? Testing, Procedures, Appointments, Adoption updates, Life updates? What’s going on, etc. Let's hear all about it!
OB called to say that the SA was super low... My bloodwork came back with flying colors... Consult ASAP with both of us to figure out what is next....
QOTW: Tell us one thing about yourself that we don't already know. Hmmm... I don't know what I've told you girls... Probably that I'm the youngest of three and there are 17 and 13 years between my siblings and I
FFC/AW of the Week (no rules): I am petrified of needles which is making me anxious of all the next steps...
Ashley & Jeremy 10/10/10
Getting fit for IVF! (add another 20lbs and you have my total weight lost! )
QOTW: I worry that people don't think I belong here (I am not looking for sympathy) because I'm not really TTC anymore and don't plan on starting again.
Updates: DH is on board with adoption now, so I cancelled my meds and we are beginning that process. We haven't really told people yet, but we are camping with my parents this weekend, so I think I'll say something.
QOTW: I really don't know...Im fairly open.
"I said what I meant and I meant what I said, an elephant's faithful 100%" Dr. Seuss, Horton Hatches The Egg.
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QOTW: I was married once before to an awful human being, and we had actually tried 2 cycles of IUI, which THANK GOD, were not successful. He had actually threatened to leave me if I wasn't pregnant by the end of the year that I ended up leaving his sorry ass (among may other terrible things that he did/was responsible for).
Holy shit! That is another heavy thing. I'm so glad you left his ass and found someone awesome.
Cheering on all of my 3T ladies! DX with PCOS - 11/2012 DH S/A & HSG - Normal - Too many rounds of Clomid = BFNs - New RE 5/2014 - Repeat Testing - Losing 40lbs before injects/IUI
@nfp147 - I will never ever think you don't belong here. You're in the family for life.
Cheering on all of my 3T ladies! DX with PCOS - 11/2012 DH S/A & HSG - Normal - Too many rounds of Clomid = BFNs - New RE 5/2014 - Repeat Testing - Losing 40lbs before injects/IUI
Cheering on all of my 3T ladies! DX with PCOS - 11/2012 DH S/A & HSG - Normal - Too many rounds of Clomid = BFNs - New RE 5/2014 - Repeat Testing - Losing 40lbs before injects/IUI
QOTW: I worry that people don't think I belong here (I am not looking for sympathy) because I'm not really TTC anymore and don't plan on starting again.
I worry about that, too, but I figure that people will just start being mean to me to make me leave. ;-)
TTC #1 since Feb. '12. dx: "unexplained" IF
After 2 shitty IVF cycles and 1 loss at 6+2 (EDD 11/7/14), DH and I are pursuing DIA.
11/17/2014 - ACTIVE AND WAITING!
Pregnancy was never the end goal; being a mom was.
I've been holding out on GP: I got drunk once and started a blog: Here it is (11/7 update)
Re: 3T Check In
No real update for me. Just waiting for my RE appointment next month.
QOTW: I'm terrible at this type of question. I did find out that I passed my competency today to be a certified Cognitive Behavioral Therapist!!!! Such a relief that I don't have to record my sessions again!
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
BFP 2: 7/7/2014 Beta 7/8: 115, Beta 7/12: 638, Beta 7/16: 3793, Beta 7/21: 21,625
This is the part where I hang my head. I didn't know what it was and what was going on (again another reason why I want to bring up sex at a younger age with my children). So I never said anything to my parents or anyone. Still to this day they do not know that it happened, and there were no charges pressed. He was 17 at the time. So he knew better.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
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Update - We've been emailing with an agency that I really like (national pool, refunds if BM backs out, we can say no to anything), but we just got the estimated budget. I nearly choked. It's an entire salary. Holy hell.
QOTW: I have walked across hot coals before.
FX for Looney and our secret keeper!!!!!!
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
BFP 2: 7/7/2014 Beta 7/8: 115, Beta 7/12: 638, Beta 7/16: 3793, Beta 7/21: 21,625
~TTC Buddies with akcrrr and amandaf6383~
Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
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There would be no murder. Just slow torture.
ETA:
*Disclaimer, I would never murder or torture anyone.
I feel like I need to add that just in case there's someone thinking I would go all Criminal Minds on someone or something.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
@rockabye – Sorry your RE is moving. Hope you get a new one that you love!
@aimothy – Best secret keeper!!! Very excited for you!!!
@looneylife – FX for Monday!!!
@sewilson33 – I hope you get that surprise HSG baby!
@amandaf6383 – I love that you wink at yourself! That’s too funny!
@brij2006 – My heart breaks for you! You are such a strong woman.
@sweetpotato123 – May will be here before you know it!!
@abt8113 – Congrats on your certification!!
@poppies717 – You know I love you. Also, hot coals? You’re insane.
@rockabye I have actually done some research to find the best one to go to now that my new insurance covers it.
Unfortunately this has been part of why I'm choosing to stop TTC. I've never fully dealt with the emotional baggage that this and my abusive childhood has brought. It's always been something I've handled and moved on from. Then the emotions and heartbreak of 3T and losing 3 children happened, and the panic attacks started back up. Now I feel like it would be irresponsible for me to conceive a child before handling all of these things I've never fully dealt with.
I want to give each and every one of you girls a big huge hug. It means so much to hear others say that I am strong and an inspiration. It truly does keep me from not saying "F it" to the many things I keep fighting for.
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
Baby Boy born 5.3.15
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
DE IVF ER - 12/2/2016 (17R/10F = 8 frosties); FET 1.0 (1/27/2017) - BFP 6dp5dt (EDD 10/16/2017)
Cycle 8,9,10 - 50mg Clomid - BFN
Getting fit for IVF!
OB called to say that the SA was super low... My bloodwork came back with flying colors... Consult ASAP with both of us to figure out what is next....
QOTW: Tell us one thing about yourself that we don't already know.
Hmmm... I don't know what I've told you girls... Probably that I'm the youngest of three and there are 17 and 13 years between my siblings and I
FFC/AW of the Week (no rules): I am petrified of needles which is making me anxious of all the next steps...
Getting fit for IVF!
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