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Xan921
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Update on my DH, me and our life (Long)
Hi ladies. I have received so many amazingly sweet and caring messages over the last few weeks and I cannot thank you all enough. Some of the messages I've received have come at some of my hardest moments and were able to put a smile on my face when I didn't think I could smile anymore. This is extremely hard for me to write out but I wanted to provide a final update as a whole rather than individual messages.
My Dh was transferred out of the ICU after 8 days on October 18th and into a regular hospital room where he stayed until October 20th. He was then moved to the behavioral health unit until he was discharged on October 23rd. His physical health is fine and I thank the universe every single day that he was able to pull through. He checked himself into a rehab on the 23rd. I had a trip planned to California prior to any of this happening and couldn't cancel, so I went and saw my Dh the evening of the 21st which is the last time I have seen him and then I got on a plane on the 22nd and was gone through the 26th. Prior to me leaving we had discussed him going into an inpatient rehab for at least 30 days and then we'd figure things out from there. We had discussed us living apart after the rehab so that he could focus 100% on getting himself better and perhaps live with other people who have been through the same struggles; we had looked into sober living houses and he agreed.
Unfortunately, things didn't go as planned and on October 24th, less than one day of him being in rehab I received a phone call from the rehab that he had checked himself out; he had nothing on him but a bag of his clothes, no wallet, truck keys, ID...nothing. He called me shortly after that and didn't really give an explanation other than that he couldn't stay there. He couldn't get in touch of anyone willing to pick him up so he decided to try to walk home which is around 90 minutes away by car; I didn't know this was his intention. Apparently he was walking down the highway and passed out due to low blood sugar (he has type 1 diabetes) and was picked up by a police officer and an ambulance and taken to the nearest hospital. I received a call from him in the hospital. He was shortly discharged and his older brother picked him up, drove him to his truck which is at my Mom's house (we've been living in the in-law apartment at my Mom's house for the last 15 minutes in order to save up to buy our first home). I contacted my Mom and asked that she put his wallet and keys in his truck. Per my Mom's request, he is no longer welcome to live here. On October 26th he requested to come get some of his personal items and was able to do so. Currently he is living semi out of his truck and semi with his grandmom.
His addiction and mental struggles are something that we've been dealing with for years. We've had extreme lows and extreme highs. We had decided to start TTC during a long span of great moments and then decided to start treatments during what I thought was over a year and a half of pure love, bliss and romance. I have done every single thing that I can possibly think of to try to help him. I've offered him all of my love and support; I've attended AA meetings with him as well as Al-Anon meetings for myself so I could understand the situation better and learn better ways to deal with the issues. I've changed my life style so that alcohol isn't allowed in our home by anyone and for a very long time I cut alcohol out of my life completely as well. I've stood by him during court cases and have paid for lawyer fees, counselors, rehab and numerous hospital and doctor's bills. I have literally picked him up off of the ground during dark moments and have celebrated each victory I thought he was accomplishing. There is literally nothing else that I can do for him. It has taken me a very long time to realize that I cannot help him but rather he has to help himself.
So after more tears than I've cried in my entire life, I have decided to separate from him. I am also moving into my own little one bedroom apartment closer to where I work. I do not plan to inform him of this move until after it has taken place and I am settled in as I don't know that I'm strong enough to not say "ok, just move with me". I will pack up all of his remaining items as well as all of our pictures, wedding albums, etc and put them in our storage unit so he can access anything he needs/wants. My heart is completely broken and not a single day has gone by that I haven't fallen on the floor and just cried and cried. I just don't know what else to do but I feel like with all of my help he is only getting worse.
One of the hardest things for me is when someone says "Don't you hate him after all of this?" or "How can you still love him?" but the thing is, I love him just as much today as I did the day I married him. I just don't know how to help him anymore and it's starting to destroy me both mentally and physically. We've been together for 10 1/2 years, have been married for 4 years and have experienced a pregnancy albeit brief and a loss together. Not a single ounce of me hates him; I love him so so much.
As cliche as it sounds, I love him enough to let him go. I hope with every ounce of hope that I have left, that maybe this is his true rock bottom and he will finally want to improve his life and maybe in a few months, 6 months, a year, whatever time frame, that he gets better and is a happy and healthy person. I hope that if he works on himself that maybe eventually we can start talking about us again or working on us, but in the end, I truly just want him to be ok whether it is with me or without me.
As for me, I have to figure out what my new normal is and that scares me and makes me incredibly sad yet somewhat excited which I feel guilty about. Right now I am using every bit of strength that I have to just keep going.
I will not be participating on the board anymore but I wish you all the very best of luck in TTC, becoming pregnant and being the amazing mom's that I know you all will be. If anyone who I am not friends with on facebook would like to keep in touch, please contact Bruins, Nfp or OceanHutt and they can provide you with my information.
Once again, I thank you all so much for your love, support and kind words. I hope to eventually one day join you all again. So much love to you all!
TTC since March 2012 w/irregular and anovulatory cycles.
Moved to an RE October 2013 HSG- All clear , S/A- Normal , Bloodwork -Normal
Uterine polyp found- Hysteroscopy and D&C 12/6/13 DX w/complex endometrial hyperplasia
Endometrial Biopsy 3/21/14 - Hyperplasia still present Endometrial Biopsy #2 6/24/14 - All clear!
IUI #1 w/stims and trigger - Started stims 7/7/14 - IUI 7/24/14 = BFP 8/7/14
Beta #1 8/8 - 47 Beta#2 -137 Beta#3 - 96 Beta#4 -287 Beta#5 -519 Beta#6 121 = early miscarriage 5w4d
Nestie Besties with Nfp147
Re: Update on my DH, me and our life (Long)
B Born 6.27.13
...hello out there!
dx with anovulatory PCOS 2005
off bcp 11/11
a few rounds of clomid and femara... no response.
injectables/IUI 12/12... BFN
Feb 13 IVF cycle converted down to IUI due to low follicle response... BFFN
one last IVF attempt April/May 2013: 19 retrieved. 10 fertilized. 2 transferred in a 3dt. 4 frosties... BFP!!
EDD: 1/21/14... Induced early at 36+6. Our LO was born 12/30/13
Married August 2009
3 years. 5 losses.
Our rainbow baby boy born 11.16.15
TTC#2 4/14
A Parachute in an Oak Tree: A World of Love
DE IVF ER - 12/2/2016 (17R/10F = 8 frosties); FET 1.0 (1/27/2017) - BFP 6dp5dt (EDD 10/16/2017)
~TTC Buddies with akcrrr and amandaf6383~
Natural Cycle (8/7/13)- BFP! Beta #1 (9/10/13): 509 Progesterone: 18.64 Beta #2 (9/12/13): 1118
"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. SeussFET - transferred two embryos (boy and girl) - Nov 2014 - BFP!
I wish you the best as you move forward.
dx: Unexplained IF (mild MFI)
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15
TTC 19 months ~Started RE in March 2014~
DH was not ready for IUI so we waited
~Started acupuncture in May 2014~
~~BFP 7/6/14~~~EDD 3/14/15~~It's a girl!!~~
Currently on Metformin and Synthroid
EDD: 6.15.15
Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter
TTC Since January 2011 - We have bad spermBaby Boy born 5.3.15
My new bff Gayle Forman!
“You can have your wishes, your plans, but at the end of the day, it's out of your control"
- Gayle Forman
"People talk about escapism as if it's a bad thing... Once you've escaped, once you come back, the world is not the same as when you left it. You come back to it with skills, weapons, knowledge you didn't have before. Then you are better equipped to deal with your current reality."
- Neil Gaiman
Married Bio
The Rowdy Roberts
TTC since 1/13 DX:PCOS 5/13 (long, anovulatory cycles)
Clomid 50mg 9/13 = BFP! EDD 6/7/14 M/C 5w6d Found 11/4/13
1/14 PCOS / Gluten Free Diet to hopefully regulate my system.
Chemical Pregnancy 03/14
Surprise BFP 6/14, Beta #1: 126 Beta #2: 340 Stick baby, stick! EDD 2/17/15
Riley Elaine born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0 6/15
Chemical Pregnancy 9/15
Chemical Pregnancy 6/16
BFP 9/16 EDD 6/3/17
Beta #1: 145 Beta #2: 376 Beta #3: 2,225 Beta #4: 4,548
www.5yearstonever.blogspot.com
In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my LIGHT, my STRENGTH, and my SONG!
T-TTC since Dec 2008. PCOS/nonexistant cycles(anovulation) and endo. HSG in '10 revealed both tubes blocked. Lap surgery in Dec '10 to correct. Failed Clomid/IUI and injectable(Bravelle)/IUI cycles so far.
08/13: Started TTC - 07/14: PCOS dx
BFP 09/18/15 - Baby S 05/27/16
Cinnabun and Junebug say, "Go Wildcats!"
"I DO NOT love that you think so many things revolve around you. I know you're bitter. I get it. But I'm over your feelings." The best person on the internet ever!
~ S & L 8-25-12 ~