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NER support & zombie hugs, please
I could really use some internet support from my fave gals. I can't really talk about it, but my marriage is in shambles. Prognosis is not good. If I stay with him, it will be a long, hard road that might still end horribly, and my self-respect is on the line. How can I live with myself, let alone him? But I still love him -- and I know he loves me, despite everything-- so leaving isn't a happy-making prospect either. As you all know, we were TTC (which is certainly not the case anymore) and there's the possibility that I conceived this cycle. So, there's that, too.
I have had a pretty good life so far and can safely say these have been the worst days ever. I am drowning right now and barely holding it together. Is this really my life? What afuckingsoap opera.
Just had to get that out, as it helps to ramble. Thanks, A06ers.
Re: NER support & zombie hugs, please
And for extra good measure:
Wow. I'm so sorry. I'm a newlywed, so I'm hardly qualified to talk about marriage troubles, but I really hope you guys get some good marital counseling that helps you reach some resolution on where to go from here.
And imagine this is my dog giving you kisses to make you feel better.
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Hang in there hon, we all have our tough times to deal with.
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I wish you the best in this bad situation. It always breaks my heart to hear this about people I really enjoy on these boards, even though I don't know you at all, I still feel like I do.
Brookles--I'm sorry you guys are having troubles. I know it's difficult. Just please know we're here for you, any time, any way you need us to be.
I'm not sure if counseling is an option, but when H and I were having some serious problems, counseling really helped. And not always because of the therapist specifically, but just because it really helped us open up and talk in a way we may not have on our own.
Good luck to you and most importantly, take care of yourself.
Awh brookles. I'm so sorry. ((((((((hugs)))))))) You're in my prayers. I hope get the answers you need.
ditto re counseling. It's worth a shot, right?
But also, as I tell my friends who come to me for relationship advice, you need trust, respect, and love for a healthy relationship, and the love is probably the least important of those 3. It sounds like you're missing respect and possibly even trust.
So sorry you're going through this right now.
Brookles, I am SO sorry to hear it! Please feel free to talk about anything you're comfortable with. We are totally here, and feel free to facebook message or anything if you ever need anything.
I really hope everything works out for the best and that you are able to find a solution that brings you peace.
Oh I am so sorry. I can't imagine how rough this must be for you. Hang in there, and feel free to unload here any time.
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I'm so sorry you are going through a tough time
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Brookles 
I hope you find the support you need... hang in there and take care.
Im so sorry you are going through this.
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Hey Brooks. I'm so sorry to hear where this is going. I know you must be a mixed bag of emotions today. You don't have to make any decisions right now. I'll echo the counseling recommendation, unless there are known deal-breakers that you won't change your mind on. At the very least, some counseling for you is in order -- no one should feel like their drowning. You'll make better decisions if you can get support and work out your feelings, outside of feeling like you have to share them with your husband right now. Esp b/c you mention there is a self-respect issue if you stay, I'd encourage you to talk to someone.
I'm sorry you're having a tough time. Be good to yourself. Go visit a friend, go for a massage, take lots of baths -- whatever you need to do to get a break from the situation and feel more like yourself (and less like drowning).
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ditto all others - I'm so sorry brookles
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Thank you, my dear internet friends. I know it's all words, but it does help me. The crux of the matter is that MD is right--we have love, but no trust or respect. I'm going to set up counseling for myself after getting a recommendation today, but as for the rest, it's up to him to drive that ship--getting counseling for himself and for us together. I really can't make that effort.
I just need some time to think and figure out what to do, but this is the hardest decision of my entire life.
(pgh, feel free to delete your email address--I emailed you).
Brookles, marriage can be so hard sometimes. I am so sorry that you guys are going through a rough patch and wish you luck in reaching a conclusion that you feel comfortable with. I think if your husband is willing to go to counseling, that could be an excellent option to get some perspective. Respect is so important in a relationship but so is forgiveness. I have no idea what is going on, but only you can determine what is a forgiveable offense and what isn't. I know that I am a very prideful person, so I have to watch letting my pride get in the way of reaching a potential resolution for a problem that may arise in my marriage. Marriage is meant to be forever, and there is not one person that can make it through a lifetime of marriage without doing something hurtful to their significant other. But again not knowing what is going on I can't weigh in on if it is something you should walk away from or not, but I just thought I would throw some stuff out there.
Good luck with everything!
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I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
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I am so sorry you are going through this...I hope the best resolution rears his head over Alaska for you.
All my good thoughts for you.
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I'm so sorry! Ditto the others on counseling for yourself--stat. If nothing else, it will help to have someone rooting for your peace of mind.