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Yesterday was irrational annoyances...
So today, let's talk about irrational fears. I don't know about you, but I have lots.
Like spiders.
And my car getting hailed on. Even though, eventually I know that no matter how hard I try to make sure my car is in a covered place when it storms, it's going to get hailed on at some point.
And I have a very irrational fear that my DH is going to die before me. Maybe that's not irrational. I don't know.
And this one is really weird. I have an irrational fear that once we have a child, I'm going to be second fiddle to DH and he's going to treat me differently. I kind of like being the center of his universe right now, which is why I know I'm not ready for kids. I know, stupid and a little selfish. 
But nonetheless, it's a fear I have. I don't even know where I come up with these things.
Oh, yeah, and onions.
So, what are yours?
Re: Yesterday was irrational annoyances...
Summer,
I can totally understand the baby fear. Its stupid but I hate if the cat is getting more lovey time than I am
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Mine big one is:
Fear of being alone/dying alone. This one has come a long way but it still gets me. If I am alone in the apartment I always worry I will slip and fall, crack my head up/break my neck and die before anyone gets home.
I dont really have any other major fears but I have A LOT of sorces of irrational anxiety.
I am usually 20-30 min early EVERYWHERE, I cant handle the idea of being late. I havent woken up late in over 3 years but the last time I did it was a full on melt down.
I get really anxious when it is too quiet, it really bothers me for some reason.
Work is a huge one, I am CONSTANTLY worrying about something not going right or me failing.
I like this one!
That I will get kidnapped.
That a bridge will fall with me either on or underneath it.
Summer - You spawned a new one. If we have kids, I'm afraid of always being the bad cop. DH is the good cop with Cosmo (dog) and I always have to be the mean one.
Infertility.
Aliens.
Our country being invaded and getting bombed or having tanks rolling down my street.
My SIL told me the other day that she's really scared of zombies, like truly scared.
ETA: Roller coasters, skydiving, bungee jumping, anything along those lines gets a big "Hell no!" from me.
Summer, we have a few fears in common.
Tthe being second fiddle is a HUGE fear of mine. I've talked to DH about it, but I am the same way. I think knowing that this is something we fear isn't just a way to know we're not ready yet, but I hope that it shows great maturity.
Sometimes, when I try to imagine Brad dying before me my heart skips a beat and I get a little panicky. If I dwell on it too much I'll start crying and go full out panic attack; so I try not too. It's weird because before I met him I was very independent and now I don't want to do anything or be anywhere without him.
I get really scared at night and will not walk anywhere by myself. If I am closing at work one of the guys walks me out, if I am at home Matt has to come outside and walk me inside.
I have a dumb fear of bees/wasps/etc. I hate them and they freak me out majorly. I can't stand to hear them buzz and don't want them near me. I've never been stung and don't plan to be.
I also have a fear of spiders, they give me the creeps. If I see one in the house I scream and run like a little girl. Then I realize crap I have to kill it so I have to muster up everything in me to swat it with a shoe.
I would love it if I could do that. Unfortunately there is usually no one at my office with me. I have a knife, pepper spray, and I really wouldn't mind getting a CHL....but I'm chicken.
Most people think I am flat out crazy but I dont really care, people dont end up tied up in a trunk for being overly cautious. I would love a CHL but I know I get spooked easily so I just wont do it.
This is my BIL. He screams bloody murder and runs away from any flying/stinging bug. It's a little ridiculous, actually.
I think I remember talking about this at the G2G briefly. I'm so glad I'm not alone, because I feel so weird, and guilty even about feeling this way.
I feel like I'm going to be a bad mother, because of it.
I've also talked to DH about it, and he's told me he doesn't understand why I feel this way, because he won't treat me any differently once we have children. But I also know that once kids come, neither he OR I will be the first priority anymore, they will be. That's just a fact. And right now, DH puts my wellbeing and desires/happiness before anything else. I know when a child comes, it will be the kids, then me. I feel so incredibly selfish saying that out-loud. I am sure I will feel the same way when I'm a mother, about obviously the children coming first. But, I don't know how else to explain it.
Summer,
I dont think there is anything wrong with that feeling. My mom used to say that when you get married you put the other person first and they out you first, when you have a child both parents usually put the kid first. I think this is just reality and I dont think there is anything selfish about it. Its a big adjustment and knowing you arent ready to make them makes you very mature in my book. I think the only time its selfish is if you have a child and resent them for the changes you had to make.
Oh fears... I have some funny ones.
Bio
These are cracking me up.
I am very afraid of wasps, bees, etc. and will flee from the room screaming. I have also been known to spray wasp killer inside of my house, all over windows and light fixtures to kill them.
I've said this before, but I've never used the cruise control because I'm afraid it will get stuck and my car will go out of control.
Choking. I still don't like for Melodie to eat hard candy like Jolly Ranchers and she's 17.
Being smothered.
Aneurysms.
I'm sure I could think of more.
With All the Trimmings
Just do it!
Mine is the opposite, I guess. I've come across a few mommy blogs and it seems the life revolves around the child and the mom and the dad is nowhere to be seem. I think "Is this what I'll become?"
I also think it's a sign of maturity and the fact that you both have shared that it does exist, speaks tons. You are aware of the possibility and can look out for it.
My fear: man holes. DH asked me the other day if I drive over them in the car since I prefer not to walk over them. The answer is yes because the car goes down at least 2 inches and it's like hitting a pot hole and it shakes the car.
Ok I'm not that extreme, I know better than to swating a stingy flying bug. That's just asking for it.
With All the Trimmings
Just do it!
Brianna,
The albino thing cracked me up.
Another one: giving birth. My nephews mom died after giving birth because of an aneurysm and hearing stories of mothers not making it scare the crap out of me. I know it's one in a million but then I think what if I am that one? I have no desire to be pregnant or give birth and just start freaking out if I think about it too much.
I thought y'all were taking Melodie to Europe??
Add Fish and Aneurysms to my list! We all have so much in common, haha.
Brianna - I can't honestly say that I've ever seen an albino person.
I do the same thing but Matt is usually pretty good about at least sending me a text. I also hate when I am running an hour late because of a meeting or something and I dont have a missed call from Matt. My thought process is what if I am in a trunk and not still at work and you would never know. I know this is unrealistic but I still think it.
Wow you all probably think I have serious issues. lol
Yeah, I mean more like beach places: the DR, Costa Rica, Mexico--you know, places where all the drug lords hang out.
With All the Trimmings
Just do it!
**jumps up and down and screams** YES THIS!!! Also, if I call when you know I'm commuting to or from work... answer (or at least call back). I could be in a wreck, broken down, or kidnapped.
I'm sorry, but I'm cracking up over here!
Bobbieleigh, you kick out the tail light and then wave your hand out of it so that people will see you. Assuming you're not tied up of course.
With All the Trimmings
Just do it!
Yes, if I am going to see you in 20 min I am not calling just to say HI, I am calling because I actually need something.
No I don't think you have issues!
I have thought the same thing before. Most of the time he sends me a text when I'm not home within about 30-45 minutes of when he's expecting me, though.
lol
Yes! completely agree!
Bio